It has been a weird journey for me, and I'm still not sure I have found all the answers yet, but I think I'm okay with being a twink-ish guy with some feminine features. I never felt like I wanted to be a girl, but I also never really identified with the supposedly overly-masculine ideal of men, and neither did I ever identify with a lot of supposedly manly things like sports, overly competitiveness and an overbearing sense of dominance. I was always reserved, sensitive, a bit shy but also quite energetic sometimes.
The biggest issue for me to accept was my body type. I'm only 5'7" and I weight like 115lbs at most. People used to joke a lot about how thin I was, saying stuff like how I'd fly away if the wind picked up. Even during high school, I found it a bit awkward that I was pear-shaped, as in, my hips are a bit larger than a guy's should be. But nowadays I'm starting to get more comfortable with it, and while I'm not okay with wearing skin-tight clothing at all, I suddenly don't mind wearing clothes that fit my shape better.
Another thing I learned during high school is when people asked me: "Why do you wear eyeliner?" But...I don't? I literally apply no makeup whatsoever, but then I look at my eyelids on a mirror and realize that yes, it does kinda look like it a bit, but I don't. That's just the way they are...
I'm slowly starting to get comfortable with myself and who I am I guess, even if I'm not sure what that really means exactly.
What probably helped with all this was me realizing that I'm bi, and then discovering much more about my attraction for guys.
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"The quieter you become, the more you are able to hear." --Ram Dass