Pretty shitty so far:
Failed my bachelor's thesis. (Which means no degree).
I then signed up to a loose course this autumn, but I kinda failed that too since I'm way too stressed out about my economical situation currently, and the lack of any light in the end of the tunnel in regards to getting a job.
Another shitty thing is that I'm trying to learn some form of game engine so I can start working on my own original thing that I could actually sell, but I'm terrible at focusing on crap that I'm not familiar with. So getting over the first hurdle of learning a new engine has been a pain. Currently I'm procrastinating learning game maker (which I got an all-around licenses for basically for free).
IDK.
The political spectrum in the world is going in a terrible direction too which makes me feel like shit. A lot of jobs are going to be replaced in the future, and a lot of them are already, with machines. Unless we move towards a society that accepts everyone and provides people will basic necessities like food, shelter, and happiness then we have a problem. The problem is that the politicians are all in the hands of the elite that can't relate nor care about the general populace (Not that I can fathom what they'd need more money for). Unless base income or something becomes standard society is gonna go down the shitter when people can't get jobs. :I
Not to mention all the surveillance that is being pushed everywhere, which basically ends up with no one having any privacy at all. That's gonna go down well when the world is moving towards more turbulent times. ._.
Really, I can't think of anything positive happening to me this year so far, cheers for another one.
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- Finally had the mental breakdown that was 3 years in the making and tried to drop out of University (didn't)
- Achieve degree, but with it comes the fact that it's actually useless
- We did the fucking stupidest thing and decided to leave the EU like a bunch of racist morons
- I get to sponge off the government for money because I can't even get a shitty data entry role
- Head to Manchester for what appears to be a really great job opportunity, turns out to be people just trying to take advantage of fresh graduates
- Get a volunteer position at a games company, then see above
- It's Christmas, I'm broke, I'd really rather not see certain members of my family because some of the shit they say is just horrific
This year can just go die in a fire already.
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There definitely are the worldwide/political issues bothering the absolute fucking hell out of me...
Family stress has also been eating me, and my mother constantly reminds me about how "worthless" I am to these oh, so BRILLIANT employers till I have some dumb-ass piece of paper that certifies me as an "expert". Hell, I've been told by more than a few people already doing some of the kind of stuff I want to, that most of the actual skills are totally useless because 'suits' make all the decisions in these companies to the point of 'why in the hell do they hire experts?'
My projects are being stalled both by how frustratingly little I know about binary file formats, and the fact my dad "cleaned" the desktop and somehow managed to delete nearly EVERY FUCKING THING (stupid moron...). There's also my motivation that seems to continue to decrease evermore.
Overall, I'm sick of watching/listening to all this drama and bullshit that's taken a stranglehold of nearly EVERYWHERE, be it online or IRL.
I have on multiple occasions had my words (and in some cases, thoughts) manipulated during conversations/arguments. (Two noteworthy occasions: one nearly got me arrested, both got me banned from vg-resource. I am ever more so impressed by the way it was handled, nothing short of basically being fascism and thought-policing. (and ofc, this has cut me off from a TON of useful information/people for completing projects, or maybe networking together for future relationships...) ) WONDERFUL...
tech trends are pissing me right the hell off... "security" , "consistency" , "bring back C++" , "modern" , "dropped support of everything before" , etc...
youtube and deviantart are just in a downwards spiral... I think facebook has officially lost it, right when I thought it couldn't get any more absurd, this LIVE thing shows-up and now plagues the tv advertisements... I'm not on facebook, anyways...but more ways for it to become annoying/stupid, because people will mis-use this feature like everything else.
Hell, I just feel overwhelmed.
I actually can't think of a lot of good things about this year, either...
No matter how many I list, there's at least ten times as many bad things...
good things:
I'm alive (and still healthy, to my knowledge)
Some of my projects have made some significant progress and could see completion soon
I did finally get to do some ludum dares, even though I have utterly failed at each one
I have found places I can help people that I am happy with
There have been some happy/funny things despite the shitstorm this year has been for the world
Kinda meh, for the most part. Moved from one okay to job, to the same job somewhere else with less pay and more frustrations. Still living with my family, which is also frustrating, and I want to move out ASAP, but I don't know when it'll happen. The whole state of politics south of the Canadian border is fucking terrifying, but admittedly it may not affect my day-to-day too much.
Got to do some cool stuff this summer! A couple nice trips for concerts and conventions, which was fun!
I also might end the year on a high note, cause I met a girl a few weeks ago, and other than not really knowing how to handle that it seems like things are going pretty great!
I started branching out to engineering music and audio for misc. people
I finished High School. It was more of a crash and burn, but heyo, it worked
Finally released a completed music project that wasn't just a single
I decided not to go to college after school, met some of the greatest people during summer for Anime Expo, and now we normally talk which is something I'm really proud of given my social history in high school
I had a really, really critical surgery on my spine for scoliosis. I'm still recovering, but it's been quick.
As of recently, I'm relocating to Los Angeles or Orange County on a super short notice. Finding work is hard, especially given that I'm no student, but I'm confident as I've managed to pull a couple of interviews.
outside of the political mess that happened and worried a TON of people, my year has been interesting and I welcome what may happen next year. it's really been pushing me outside of my boundaries I had in school, and everything has been moving quite fast, but I've really been itching for this I think..
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- Job has been stable and good with minor bumps.
- Pokemon Sun and Moon revived my interest in Pokemon, that's good too.
- Fire Emblem Fates came out and it was epic. Absolutely fell in love with the games. - I spent a couple months learning some Japanese, and while I've stopped months ago now, I did learn enough to hold basic conversations with Japanese people and read stuff. It helps that I could already read kanji - I revived my old blog and now it's starting to get some hints of traffic, yay.
I have a feeling 2017 will be even better though. Even if it's just in the games department (BOTW and Switch!!)
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finished my cs degree this year despite not wanting to go into software development/engineering/oops
took up the same summer-camp-at-a-research-university job I had last year, but instead lived on campus with our house's counselors and 44 x 2 (two 3-week sessions) kids from 13-17. grew incredibly close--closer than I ever could have imagined--to these people and had an amazing time
landed a job at a major tech company as a contractor immediately after this year's summer job
turns out, despite started out not nearly as technical as my colleagues, I have grown substantially in these past few months and was assigned to an out-of-state project with very nebulous parameters (and ended up nailing the project; international travel is now on the table)
getting hired on as a full-time employee versus a contractor is slowly becoming a more and more tangible reality which is dope
oh and I bought a google pixel
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Despite seeing a lot of friends miserable and politics being terrible overall, 2016 has been quite good to me, especially this latter half. I am thankful for that.
I'm doing well in school - my grades are poor but I do pass most subjects - and if everything goes right, I'll be getting my Bachelor's degree next year. I have a Bachelor's thesis arranged, and it doubles as a student project for a major tech company, so I'll technically be interning and making some money. I'll also get a solid work laptop to replace my current one, which is falling apart.
I've made a lot of progress myself as well. I had felt like there is a lot sealed inside me and the fact that I can't express myself the way I'd like to was hurting me. So I have, well, not as much "shattered" some barriers, but have been working steadily on becoming more open and less scrupulous of a person. I've admitted to the things that give me joy and started engaging a bit. For example, I visited a local furry event and my "feathersona" is in the works (). I also try not to be afraid to admit that I'm bi.
So 2016 has been nice, but I've realized that if I'm to get my Bachelor's next year, I'll be standing at a crossroads and I should start planning sooner rather than later. There are many things on the table, including study abroad... which I've thought about slightly too late and I'm kicking myself for that, but there's a chance I'll get another opportunity, and the more I think about the idea, the more excited I am. I've been living in almost the same conditions for ten years, been seeing a lot of the same people, and a change of pace like that could do me wonders... I have high hopes for 2017 for sure... and some ambition as well, for a change.
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Warning: I ramble a bit here, prone to errors/typos. Feel free to skip anything, really.
1. I fleshed out my HTML/CSS skills and went to learn JavaScript. Might not sound like much, but it's my first programming language! I was able to write four "mini-apps"/pages using JS: a bunch of math calculations, layout maker™ (which should be a secret but eh) and an humorous "end of the world countdown" with the end of the world being the end of Windows 7's Extended Support. Oh, c'mon, it even plays the Majora's Mask song when it gets near the final days!
For me, the beginning was the most difficult part, understanding the syntax and basic structure, but from there everything went quite smoothly. I wanted to learn some other server-side language (preferably node.js + SQL but that can go quite bad so maybe I'll try something else first). Alternatively, learn some C/C++. I was supposed to learn it this year too but lazyness got the best of me.
2. Sorting my life and myself quite a bit. There's still lots of things I need to fix, like my tendency to sometimes get overly anxious/stressed and critical of myself (though I've been working on it), but overall I'm starting to figure out things a bit more. Actually being ever so sligthly social helps for once (some might not know but I can be extremely cold sometimes, not generally to people I know or like to be around but mostly around people I don't really trust). The judgements I've made to myself kinda made me sad based on how little I've accomplished so far, but I'm starting to look things from the bright side again, thankfully. Having to keep up with IRC, the forums and Discord all the same time was starting to be a bit too much for me and I was starting to get frustrated, but it looks like just a two-day break from everything was enough for me to get back in a good mood.
Something I wrote earlier but never posted, I don't think I feel like this anymore but it should give you an idea about how I felt before:
I've come to terms with it and realized I was expecting too much of myself and went back to being happy about what I already am today, even though improvement over the years is always welcome.
3. Still in school, which does get me stressed a bit specially when I need to get some research done, but it's been going good enough. Currently in summer break. I've never been a fan of literature/grammar, I'd say that's where I struggled the most this year. The thoughts about having a job in the future or going to college don't really help. I've mostly solidified what I want of my future, something either related to accounting (which is what I'm learning right now through high school + diploma) or computer science (or related), though I see multiple people's experience in the programming side of things (some from here) and I get a bit nervous, so much stuff to learn that I haven't even touched yet and even still there's going to be problems. Thinking about getting my own home sometime in the not-so-near-future because this place, even though it's nice, it's already starting to get quite noisy which is one of the easiest ways to stress me out. Nothing too bad, but not something I want for too long.
4. I've also been a bit too critical of others (mostly internally) due to the political events of course (most of this is in some other places, not on any forums), but all this reminds me that in the end, some people care so much about being right they forget why they want to be in the first place. So many people rush to conclusions on so many levels, and while that may be fine, it's sad to see how much this drifts people apart. If people actually paid attention to history, sociology or philosophy class in high school (provided the school doesn't suck) maybe they could learn to tone the bigotry down a notch and be less ignorant and more considerative, which isn't the opposite of being realistic mind you. Then again, this is all a gigantic mess and calling anyone out on it in particular won't solve much, but trying to work towards a common goal by seeing what already happened and what studied previously helps matters. Again, I'm mostly neutral about all this now, no use focusing on what wears you down most of the time.
5. Going to Brasil Game Show 2016! To be honest, it was quite noisy too there, what with all the people going around everywhere, but it was nice to look around a bit even if to say "hey, I went to a gaming convention once". Not sure if it's something I want to do again though.
6. Some 電車 is always welcome (or alternatively some 汽車). Always gets me in a better mood, even if I fail hard in some stages of the game. Actually, about happiness, being around people, both on real-life in school or at home, or in the internet on IRC, Discord or anywhere else, being able to know that even though I'm no special person that I was able to help or that I was able to brighten the mood even in the slightest, make someone's day even a bit better is a great feeling.
7. Trying to keep up with some YouTubers has been more and more of a problem, I'm easily falling behind. I think I'll have to stop watching some people, unfortunately (and I'm only subscribed to about 25 people!). Trying to think about content to put out there is also a bit tricky, but I got a very small audience so my random sparks of activity every month should do well enough. Haven't touched on anything TCRF-worthy for a while too...
Other minor things:
- I got to eliminate 755 viruses in Marathon Mode of Dr. Mario 64 on Hi Speed and High Difficulty. Not easy for sure.
- Got 8th place on a chess tournament at school. There were only a few people (12th was the last place in the group I ended up in) but I still did well considering some people there were REALLY experienced.
- Playing To The Moon, watching an LP of OFF. Noteworthy enough to be mentioned somewhere here.
- I wanted to play Undertale this year, but I didn't get to. I still have a bit of time left, but it's really iffy if I'll get to play it or not. I already have the game on Steam, c'mon!
2016 was interesting, it had its ups and downs, but I feel like it all was an experience that needed to happen and that we need to learn from it in general (or that might just be me, eh). 2017 and the next years, oh boy. I seriously hope things slow down a bit.
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On one hand I'm alive, healthy, probably mentally healthier than I've ever been, including self-regard, and my job, while not being too challenging is pretty damn supportive and pays pretty well.
On the other burnt bridges with various family because #politics, most of the time pretty much cursing them out for being awful turds. Feel like I have to put future plans on indefinite hold because I'm that fucking uncertain if there will actually be a future.
Been using legal highs as sort of a means of escape from reality. Probably a really fucking terrible idea but... eh, been meaning to see what the fuss on these things were about before kicking it.
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Originally posted by Gabu On the other burnt bridges with various family because #politics, most of the time pretty much cursing them out for being awful turds. Feel like I have to put future plans on indefinite hold because I'm that fucking uncertain if there will actually be a future.
Been using legal highs as sort of a means of escape from reality. Probably a really fucking terrible idea but... eh, been meaning to see what the fuss on these things were about before kicking it.
I am very careful how I talk with my friends and family about said topic.
I have to agree with very much wondering IF there will be a future, perhaps that's where all my motivation to do ANYTHING has gone...
I play games and have naps to escape reality, or at least try... But IRL issues manage to invade everything these days, and my mom likes to CONSTANTLY bother me when I'm doing stuff. (which is the other half of my lost motivation...I literally just start programming/playing/watching something, and my mom has some chore/errand... >.>)
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Been a rather uneventful/blah year for me; although it was better than the fiasco that was senior year 2015 at college, where I got fired from my graded web dev internship due to underperformance and falling asleep on the job thrice due to high blood sugars and overall fatigue (darn diabetes and too much late night summer gaming). Still trying to figure out life, and have been underemployed for the past year after college graduation with the B.S. Software Engineering degree. I have been making enough money at 2 boring jobs to pay the minimum payment on student loan bills luckily. Depressed and unproductive overall.
On a positive note:
*I did get a new development gaming/development mobile workstation computer in January
*Started a new Sonic 1 ROM hacking project, am understanding and learning Motorola 68K asm much better than I did 6 years ago. Computer Architecture class really helped!
*Finished a 2D fighting video game that took a year of development.
*Found a NES toaster (with manuals!) at Salv. Army
*Earned the college's ACM Chapter's Student Award in Spring 2016.
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Feel like I have to put future plans on indefinite hold because I'm that fucking uncertain if there will actually be a future.
I am very careful how I talk with my friends and family about said topic.
I have to agree with very much wondering IF there will be a future, perhaps that's where all my motivation to do ANYTHING has gone...
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* There are no fucking jobs.
* My parents seem militaristically opposed to me owning a fucking car or even a fucking driver's license.
* I'm stuck living with my fucking mommy and sister-who-thinks-she's-a-second-fucking-mommy.
* There's nowhere else to fucking go.
* I can't even fucking kill myself.
* The incoming president is a FUCKING FASCIST DICKFACE FUCK THAT'S GOING TO RUIN THIS FUCKING COUNTRY
Originally posted by Halian* My parents seem militaristically opposed to me owning a fucking car or even a fucking driver's license.
Odd, my parents were on the absolute opposite. My lack of self-confidence at the time didn't help, but they had no problem with paying a billion driving lessons, so well...
In the end, I passed the tests and got the license, but I still wouldn't be comfortable driving.
Other than that, I know how you feel. Good luck. Are you sure you really have no way out? For a while, I thought that too.
Originally posted by Halian* My parents seem militaristically opposed to me owning a fucking car or even a fucking driver's license.
Odd, my parents were on the absolute opposite. My lack of self-confidence at the time didn't help, but they had no problem with paying a billion driving lessons, so well...
In the end, I passed the tests and got the license, but I still wouldn't be comfortable driving.
The same thing happened to me. I got pressured into getting a license, but driving made me really uncomfortable and I literally haven't touched a steering wheel since passing the tests, three or so years ago... Now I can't drive at all, obviously. Not that I need it when I just use public transport.
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I guess if I had to, I could drive, but... it's overly stressful. I feel that it just takes too much brain time. You're constantly taking care of this and that, worrying about someone else on the road, etc...
Always gets me in a better mood, even if I fail hard in some stages of the game. Actually, about happiness, being around people, both on real-life in school or at home, or in the internet on IRC, Discord or anywhere else, being able to know that even though I'm no special person that I was able to help or that I was able to brighten the mood even in the slightest, make someone's day even a bit better is a great feeling.
