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Originally posted by Tamkis
Warning: The following is a rant from an angry, irate, elitist college student who is pissed off at the world. And who is tired and has high blood sugars due to Type-2 diabetes right now, thus further pissing him off.


I start my first year at Robert Morris University on August 22nd and I am both terrified and pissed off at the world. Some background info first. I am transfering from the local community college into RMU in order pursue a Bachelor's for Software Engineering. Originally, at the ComT college, I was pursuing an A.S. for Electronics Engineering. Unfortunately, I ended up with an Associate's in General Studies, due to failing a required Chemistry 101 class last Fall. Rather than retake the class, and thus fall below full-time status and begin to pay loan bills in the following semester, I went with an A.G.S route to save my life. The idiot, Indian, adjunct professor couldn't teach for shit, and failed several students, myself included. This "F" destroyed my straight-A-streak, my honor, and my degree and I should have sued. Our class actually had a female student yell at the professor, and threatened to file a complaint against him; the class was that out-of-control. Due to high anxiety in the following Spring semester, I withdrew from a terrible History 101 Online class, in order to save my life. Luckily, this withdrawal did not affect anything, other than having to take a really easily Spanish 101 class over the summer.


Just a hint for future incidents like the chemistry class--expect there to be terrible classes, then drop them ASAP. Also, depending on the school, being below full-time is okay (for example, many of my quarters are below full time, but my financial aid and loan bills are NOT effected, other than I get less loan money since I don't need as much.)

Also, as many others can probably attest, the fact the professor was Indian didn't really make them bad--to think that would be racist. On the flip side, there may be many professors brought in from India who don't speak English well--but this is the problem of the professor, not something caused just because they are Indian.



Originally posted by Tamkis
August 22nd is the move-in day for transfer students into their dorms. Although I live only 15mi away from the University, and could be able to commute to RMU if I wanted to, I decided against it. I am just tired of living in boring Shitsville, where nothing happens, and living/leaching off my parent's home at age 21, like a loser in training.


This sort of attitude is rather destructive. First, there's one extreme--cases like me, where my parents went homeless and I had to go find my own house whether I liked it or not. It doesn't make me better than you that I've had such a start on things. It's just different.

Then there's those who live with their parents. Let me note the benefits they enjoy should they do that while being at college:
* Less Loan money
* They don't have to do all the chores and things by themself
* Backup in case things go wrong
* (Potentially) emotional support.

And, beyond that, everyone's life is complex, so. Don't put everyone in the 'Loser' Box because you think they aren't 'succeeding.'

...Can't say much about your home town, some towns do really suck. :X


Also, I do not like the idea of driving through Pittsburgh every morning, where I will probably get in a wreck. All of my high-school friends are out at prestigous colleges, dorming, dating girls, having parties, and excelling academically, while I stayed at home and commuted to the local community college for my Associates Degree like a loser. I just got tired and jealous of my friends' bragging, and also am pissed off that they are getting more opportunities than I am.


If you see the world always as "Somebody else has something better than me; I must get mad" you'll never be happy. Take it from someone with experience in the field.


Some more background information. I am the one who graduated from High School with a GPA of 3.9393, a Class Rank of #10/170, an Eagle Scout from Troop 423, and a member of National Honor Society, Phi Theta Kappa, and Epsilon Tau Pi. And who wore proper, tradiationalist, professional Polo Shirts everyday; yet my classmate Carson got the "best dressed award" due to wearing a Sportsjacket once or twice at school. And who did not work at all during the school year, due to being smart and not wanting to go on the same academic suicide race that some of the other "honor" students did. Furthermore, I have earned 3 scholarships so far.


Foolish fool! Wearing my disheveled T-shirts, I got a high school GPA of 4.0, two presidential awards, graduated two years early, was the first ranked in my class, a second alternate on Dick Clark's Challenge of the Child Geniuses, a member of the Beanie Baby fanclub, capable of bowling a game of 290 in the bowling alley, wore size 8 shoes, took over...

Okay, okay, I kid. But you should really reread what you typed there. It basically makes you look like a gigantic image-obsessed person with no real... well, no real soul. This is important, and I'll note why based on your next statement:


Yet these D- "students" from my past are earning more opportunities than I am, with their prestigous colleges, high paying jobs, and them dating girls! And then there was High School graduation, where everyone worshipped the Saludatorian (named Barbara T, who most definitely cheated in order to get her impossible 4.0000 GPA) and the 9 assholes who did better than me.


...There we go again. Sour grapes syndrome. If someone did better than you, they cheated; if they didn't, well, that's impossible. They were all D students in your mind, after all.

Their personalities, not their numbers, most likely got them their opportunities. Rather than waiting for it to be handed to them, they most likely went out and did work for these, just like you worked for your own millions of shiny numbers.


Rumor is she went to Harvard. Someday, she (the saludatorian, named Barbara) will face the Glass Ceiling or be exposed as the fraud she is, and I will gloat. It has been my life mission to suceed in college so that I can embarrass her with my successful life and credentials at our first high school Reunion. She is too good to be true.


Wishing ill will, especially sexist, nasty ill will like this, is... just ugly. Furthermore, if you continue acting the way you do, it would seem like she will succeed, while you will attend your reunion, righteously mad that invisible forces conspired against your inevitable rise to greatness.



Hell, I have so many credentials even at my young age that I've had an employer at Subway deny me a job due to being "too overqualified" after seeing my almighty High School transcripts & resume, and due to the employer rather hiring "stupid people", WTF. To be "overqualified" means that you can do the job and more. Am I able to make a sandwich? Hell yes; any high school dropout can do it! Yet I was able to get a job delivering Chinese without being "too overqualified." Due to not having a Bachelor's Degree, I am unable to get a job worthy of my caliber and standards.


No, the reason they don't want to hire you is because as an overqualified employee, they know you'll probably move to another job too fast for it to be worth it.

...And yes, they tend to avoid people who are too ostentatious about their credentials, lest you disrupt the work environment.



Moreover, I am dorming due to being tired of living with my near-abusive Father, with Dramatic Personality Disorder, my deadbeat & mentally/physically sick white-trash Mother (with what I think is mental retardation or Schizoid Personality Disorder, with Diabetes/End Stage Renal Disease, and with an out-of-control suicidal appetite of sugar and other forbidden foods), and with my neurotic, deadbeat, loser, white-trash brother of age 28,


Well, again, can't say much here. Granted, if you have a bad family, then you have to just move on.


who literally lives in his room all day, plays video games all day, and leaches off my parents and off of unemployment compensation due to his (false) claims of PTSD, ADD, Generalized Anxiety, and due to him dropping out of college and never getting a Bachelor's degree due to being a loser and to being suicidal. And who has never dated a single girl in his life, due to being said loser.


It's hard to take you 100% seriously though, when all you seem to think about is getting laid, and how people who haven't gotten laid are "losers." Seriously, that's teenage s@#t.


Everytime he receives a bill for his college loans, he literally just puts it on his messy desk, and lets it sit there until its overdue. Someday, the I.R.S. will knock on our door, asking for the arrest of my brother on charges of stealling an education and being an asshole/deadbeat, and I will gladly welcome them into our home for his arrest.


And... these delusional fantasies of you eventually getting your way? ...Yeah, they don't happen. Might help if you stopped them, they just make you sound like a weird jerk.


The house is always a mess, and is unfortunately kept in a white-trash way. There are always moths in the house, and the bathroom... is messy. My loser brother never does any chores and literally lives in his room, only to leave it in order to goto the bathroom, to get something to eat, or to goto downstairs in order to play some childish Little Big Planet or Minecraft on his retarded Windows 8 laptop. For God's sake, he still watches Nickelodean and Spongebob, at age 28!!


Your expectations are rather lofty, given you already noted he was too crippled to do anything. Furthermore, nobody made you the age police, nor the 'computer use' or 'computer OS' police. Once again, this contributes to why other people tend to disregard or ignore your 'achievements', since you come off to them like a rusty band saw, cutting them with nasty remarks about how everyone is terrible.


He has no interest in girls, nor in moving out into his own house. He's retarded and dishonorable white-trash, who never bathes. I, on the other hand, am the wise genius, who lives an honorable life as an Eagle Scout, and whom does his duty for God, his country, and for his self.


If this sentence got any more pompous and over the top ridiculous, you'd next claim yourself to be the Next Prophet.

Perhaps you should stop seeing yourself as better than everyone else, because it clearly isn't working. You're doing rather poorly for claiming such high station, and, for the record, I, an atheist who would probably rather live in Europe than the US, seem to do a better job of things without needing to invoke God, Country, and The Need To F@



Unlike my neurotic mom and bro, I continually help the neighborhood in community service, and keep good hygiene, and pursue truth and knowledge, rather than their pursuit of pleasant vises, television, video games, white-trashery, and ignorance. No Eagle Scout should have to lower his standard to that of my "family." Sometimes I think my family operates more on "family statics" rather than "family dynamics"; no one changes. My wise Uncle Vincent, who has some knowledge of the chaos of my "family", strongly recommended that I "get out of that enviroment" ASAP.


On the flip side, I think it's perfectly reasonable you leave the family environment, as


insert repeated "other people suck", "things I hate are inherently inferior", and "why can't I go anywhere?" over and over again here


Exposure to the world without your parents to shield you, will probably help explain what I've noted much more in depth to you.

Here's my advice: Stop raising yourself above everyone else. This little trait of yours is going to sabotoge everything you do, from your rabid need to screw a girl, to your requirement that you graduate college and do everything neatly dotted on the line.

If you simply treat people as they are, without attaching myriad labels to them, then you might get somewhere. But you need to be patient, and to think carefully. This is a crucial moment in your life. Ask yourself:

Will you sink into a pit of hatred of everyone other than you, and when you scare away potential help or friends or relationships, sink back into a pit of isolation you will never return from?

Or maybe will you open up a bit, and stop reactively locking the world away, and be more open to differences of behavior or opinion? Perhaps then you can have more success in your plans.

I'd say more, but I'm exhausted from reading all that.


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Posted on 08-19-13 10:29:36 PM (last edited by andlabs at 08-19-13 10:43:13 PM) Link
One other thing: you keep saying "saving my life" when talking about school, all because you got one F out of an entire transcript of insanely high marks. THIS IS NOT TRUE. ONE F IS NOT GOING TO RUIN YOUR LIFE. All those other grades that you got outweigh the one failure. Things like this happen: the best way to handle these situations is to figure out what you did wrong and fix them, even if the problem was with someone else (in which case you will need to find another class, as Metal_Man88 suggested). Did you know: in college, if you take the same course a second time and get a higher grade, the higher grade completely replaces the old grade? I've been to the bottom twice and am slowly working my way back up; don't trip and fall down the ladder.
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Posted on 08-19-13 10:38:12 PM Link

Acey says:

Here's the thing, Tamkis.

Elitism will get you absolutely nowhere. Neither will hatred, least of all unfounded hatred.

Believe it or not, grades are not everything. Sex is not everything. You don't have to be conventionally successful to lead a full, happy life.

Your sheer hatred of, well, nearly everyone...that concerns me. A lot. You're insisting that Barbara cheated, but what makes you think that? It's quite likely that she did well because she was very smart and a very hard worker. Trust me, if she'd cheated, chances are she would've been found out.

I'm also catching some sexism there, what with the glass ceiling comment. Women can be just as smart as men. Hell, I'm a woman myself, and not to brag, but my IQ has been measured at well above the genius level.

And yet I struggled in school, due to emotional issues (I'm bipolar and on the autism spectrum, though I'm quite high-functioning) and sheer boredom. I had no drive. It didn't make me stupid, but my grades suffered for it. See also: my above comment about grades not being everything. They are not a measure of intellect.

I honestly don't think you're going to find anyone who will be willing to date you as you are, what with your pretension and hatred. You talk yourself up like you're a friggin' deity, when you're really no better than anyone else. Everyone has their skills and weaknesses, and you're not necessarily some flawless human being solely because you do well in school.

I am guessing from a few of the things you've said that you are a religious man. Keep in mind that Jesus taught us to love thy neighbor, and get this: that includes everyone. While I am not especially religious myself, I can respect that rule.

Learn to be less of a jerk, and maybe your life will improve.

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Posted on 08-19-13 10:48:28 PM Link
While I don't believe this forum needs any "you must be this sad to enter" bar or whatever, too many of your problems come off as sounding entitled and egotistic to me, as well as other people. It rubs people the wrong play especially when a lot of people share the problems people like your "lazy retarded brother" have. Sometimes people don't bring that on themselves; I don't know. As someone who has dealt with mental/emotional problems and who has known many people who have as well, it comes off as offensive to me. Having dealt with thoughts of suicide is not something you put someone -down- for. As well, your sexist and racist-sounding comments on your schoolmates/teachers are unnecessary, especially when you did exceptionally well in school according to what you've said.. Some people cannot afford college and are thrown out of the economic loop through no fault of your own. As for your mother, she likely was only trying to help you. I sincerely doubt your mother would intentionally get you addicted to prescription medicine simply to hurt you. To say you would disown and dishonor her for that isn't right. As well, you should never harm yourself like that for your "honor" as an Eagle Scout. Keep one's health above one's image, for your own good, especially when it's something that may just be in your head.

I know this came off as hostile, but it just frustrates me to see someone speak like this when so many people I know bear the brunt of far, far worse problems without having to rant about it in such a way as you did. It's fine if you're frustrated with your life, but I request you be more civil about it.

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Posted on 08-20-13 12:30:07 AM Link
So when you got the F, your first decision was to rage-quit nearly every message board and trash your room?

It's clear that you don't want to end up like any other member in your family, which is a good thing, but you're going about it in such a black and white manner that it just can't be good for your mental health. Sure as hell wasn't for mine. Yet it sounds like you have a very negative view of mental health since you are literally shutting your mother out of your life for making you take Adderall. I'm sure what the Eagle Scouts overall message about drugs was with good intentions, but you're really taking it to an extreme by thinking taking an amphetamine is a dishonorable secret to hide from everybody. Most psychiatric drugs were initially conceived as a way to help people, and while yes some of them are now illegal, the majority of those drugs are still used today to improve mental health. It's a definite yes that there's an overprescription problem, but for the genuinely sick it can help immensely. I can understand fully that it's still a person's decision to take such a drug or not, and as a recent example I chose Wellbutrin over Abilify because of the latter being in a different class that seemed ridiculous to consider at this point and went against the principle that such a drug is too extreme for me. Yet if somewhere down the line if it comes that I have to take it, I'm not going to think of myself as less or wicked for needing to, which overgeneralizes such drugs as to be used for lesser people.


my neurotic, deadbeat, loser, white-trash brother of age 28, who literally lives in his room all day, plays video games all day, and leaches off my parents and off of unemployment compensation due to his (false) claims of PTSD, ADD, Generalized Anxiety, and due to him dropping out of college and never getting a Bachelor's degree due to being a loser and to being suicidal.


How would you know if those claims are false or not? Believe it or not mental disorders aren't consistent in their presentation. And it could be that those disorders are what put and kept him in the station that he currently is. It might be a good idea to try and convince your brother to take a more active approach to deal with said disorders (while not calling him a loser in the process)

Lastly a question: Are all those personality disorders officially diagnosed? I'm asking because it doesn't sound clear whether they were or you're just diagnosing them yourself to explain their behaviors. Either way, it might be good to suggest some community based treatments and other methods of helping.

Originally posted by "MM88"
And, beyond that, everyone's life is complex, so. Don't put everyone in the 'Loser' Box because you think they aren't 'succeeding.'


This. Little experiment for you. I went to community college for two years and aside from a D and C, I got a 3.7--all As. Am I a loser? I took a year off to try and get a scholarship, but failed. Am I a loser? I went to SF for a year and worked my ass off harder than I ever had before for a 2.7 GPA, but had to come back for financial reasons to a household where the financial future is pretty unknown. Am I a loser? I'm currently back to community college half time to try and take another path to a BA in Animation while I search for a job to help pay off my private loan and possibly chip in with the bills. All while knowing that what remains of my refund is slowly dwinding away and since becoming of age, have never had a job. I am 22. Am I a loser? I'm trying to gain resources with landing a job where I more or less have to say I have a disability (and at this point I'm convinced that my mental problems are keeping me from a job) to access. Am I a loser?

The answer, to all of these, are No. I'm not exactly succeeding at this point, but I could sure as hell be in a worse spot and still not be a loser. The idea is that I'm trying to make it work with what I have.

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Posted on 08-20-13 06:29:52 AM (last edited by Sukasa at 08-20-13 06:30:22 AM) Link
I'm sorry. I've read your posts and such, and frankly...

You need to take a long, hard look at yourself. You are so screwed up you think you're perfect.. good god, man. See a therapist. There is no nice way to put that.

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I am with the others on this... I can summarize all of your faults and the reason you're not doing well into one word: arrogance

People are not going to like you because of it. Women are going to get turned off by it. College essays and job applications that show off your arrogance will turn off reviewers. Nobody likes an arrogant person, and you're not going to succeed anywhere if you keep imagining yourself as perfect and blaming your failures on bad luck or others cheating. Others do better than you because you're far from perfect and too arrogant to notice.

Anybody with a decent ability to reason would stop halfway through OP's post and realize that the ridiculous self-importance displayed therein is one of the reasons you're doing so badly at life. You seem to fail to realize this; therefore I can see why Barbara and those "D- students" are doing far better than you.
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Just a friendly note if anyone else wants to post more--while we're fine with people being firm, do not stray into outright flaming or nastiness specifically in this thread--that is against Officer's Club guidelines.

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I am with the others on this... I can summarize all of your faults and the reason you're not doing well into one word: arrogance

People are not going to like you because of it. Women are going to get turned off by it. College essays and job applications that show off your arrogance will turn off reviewers. Nobody likes an arrogant person, and you're not going to succeed anywhere if you keep imagining yourself as perfect and blaming your failures on bad luck or others cheating. Others do better than you because you're far from perfect and too arrogant to notice.



I tend to keep my arrogance deeply under control where it matters (ie college essays and job apps), but sometimes its rears its ugly head in real life. Like since Chemistry class.

Originally posted by Gabu

How would you know if those claims are false or not? Believe it or not mental disorders aren't consistent in their presentation. And it could be that those disorders are what put and kept him in the [situ]ation that he currently is. It might be a good idea to try and convince your brother to take a more active approach to deal with said disorders (while not calling him a loser in the process)

Lastly a question: Are all those personality disorders officially diagnosed? I'm asking because it doesn't sound clear whether they were or you're just diagnosing them yourself to explain their behaviors. Either way, it might be good to suggest some community based treatments and other methods of helping.



Unfortunately, yes, my brother's personality disorders were "officially" diagnosed by a psyciatrist/psychologist. Though, I have a strong feeling that some of those were misdiagnosed, due to psychiatrists tending to blow words and actions out-of-proportion from their original context. I saw the disorders listed on a psych-eval report one day, which he left on his room's floor, when I was taking the laundry downstairs to the laundry room. Inside a brochure which was adjacent to that psych report, I also saw that he was on the verge of enrolling (either by order of the psychiatrist or by personal choice? IDK) into some kind of communnity-based living plan, which really threw a red-flag in my mind. From what I gathered from the information in the community-based plan brochure, the living quarters sounded like a psych ward/jail, with no personal freedoms. Is he so desperate and ashamed to live at home that he would rather voluntarily go into a psych ward in order to begin "living on his own" ? Even a simple job at Wendy's would fix his financial, mental, and employment problems. Earning his Bachelor's Degree will fix 90% of his problems. (Our family keeps our laundry basket in my brother's room, since his bedroom is the biggest.)
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The good news is that since I wrote the OP, I have moved into my dorm at RMU's Yorktown Residence hall, and am much more calmer right now than the state I was in when I wrote the OP. However, only 1 month into the new University, I have already met major, overwhelming problems since the OP. Especially financially.

Prior to April 12, 2013, two days before my 21st birthday, I was registered as a commuter student for RMU. As a commutter, my projected balance (minus the financial aid of $10,000 that I had), was $16,250 left unpaid, because I failed to snag enough scholarships, like with the other "responsible honor students" that father worships. I registered for the Monthly Payment Plan (MPP) for tution payment: 10 months of payments equaling ~$2753.53 per month, given out on the 15th of each month, and due at the end of each month. On April 12, 2013, after some homelife shit with father, I promptly and independently acted and changed my status to Residential status. His action was the last straw for me staying at home, two days before my 21st birthday, dammit. That action, as well as other factors, such as the quest to date women and eventually get married, the driving distance and the dangerous highways of Moon Township/Pittsburgh, the appeal of 100s of clubs on campus, the appeal of dorms as seen on Big Bang Theory, my green-eyed jealousy of all my friends moving out to big universities and living on campus while I am stuck alone at ye'old hometown, and most importantly the fact that studies show that dormers have better grades, persuaded me to change my status. Now, due to changing to residential status, I owe more $. I registered to goto any of the three cheapest Rez Halls available; however, all transfer students (myself included) and most Freshmen were assigned to the Yorktown Residence Hall, which is the newest, most expensive Rez Hall of all! The accomodations are okay.

Also, when I signed up for the MPP, I was unaware that the payments would begin over Summer 2013, rather than at the beginning of the semester. I received a rude MPP letter in the mailbox on the same day that I got fired from my 1st summer job, which was excellent timing :rolleyes:. (It was a terrible summer for employment. I had 3 summer jobs, due to being fired from the first two. I was underqualified on my first, and lost my temper with a customer on the second. My 3rd and current job is part-time as a Chinese delivery boy for a local Chinese restaurant called Taiwan 101. It's a low-stress, easy, fun job, with good tip$!). Due to being totally unprepared for those first 3 payments, I had to borrow $8,100 from my irate father, which I still owe him . He said that I am on his "shitlist". On a positive note, I did manage to earn my Associate's degree from the community college. However, it is an empty victory, due to that degree being in General Studies, due to failing the evil Chemistry I class. It should have been A.S. for Pre-Engineering. I now have to bank everything on this Bachelor's in Science Degree, for Software Engineering.

And, at the beginning of the semester, I still had $16,250 left unpayable at the time on my balance. Due to father's cheapness, lack of financial support in his own son's education (other than the $8,100), and refusal to take out several parent+ loans like most normal families, I was forced to sign out for an evil private loan from Citizens' Bank in order to cover the remaining balance. The fact that I enrolled into RMU, set my status to Residential, enrolled into the MPP Plan, and did not bring my parents to the various meetings to do these things nor informed them much, did not help. The last time they tried to "help" me in school, I ended up with Diabetes. (That is a long, complicated story and a series of unfortunate but stupid events.) Due to my utter refusal to establish a credit history and get an evil credit card within the past two years, father had to co-sign on the loan in order for me to get good enough credit for loan approval. (I prefer debit cards over credit cards anyday. Credit cards destroyed the economy.) The loan is a 15-year, variable-interest, deferred loan. After graduation, the monthly loan bills are projected to be ~$140.00, which is quite affordable. I can begin paying now, voluntarily, and elimate most of my debt now. However, if I do not pay a monthly bill, father is legally responsible to pay for it, which makes him irate. In his email following up on the private loan, father said that he "reluctantly" co-signed the loan. I know that he won't pay for a missed bill and I do not expect nor request him to do so. My brother's private loans that my brother blows off are not being paid by father. And, if by some chance I fail college and am unable to pay too many months of bills, I goto Federal Deadbeat Prison, get a record, get diabetic complications, do not get a job due to record, become a hobo, and then die. Graduation from the University has now become a do-or-die mission, just like High School !

Also, life on campus has been very hectic. Campus life can be stressful, however. Every morning, Monday to Thursday, I have a Calc III class at 8AM, which is way too early in the morning for me. Most of the time, I am late for the class, which only lasts 1 hour to begin with. When I am there, I am too tired to even understand the content. Sometimes, I even entirely sleep through my alarm and miss class. The professor has already threatened to academically withdraw me from her class, so I am on thin ice. Also, I work mornings part-time at Taiwan 101 on Sundays, Mondays, and Wednesdays from 11AM-3PM, and evenings on Tuesdays from 4:30PM-8:30PM. Moreover, on the side, I belong to the local Association of Computing Machinery (ACM) chapter, belong to the local Epsilon Tau Pi Eagle Scout fraternity, and am creating the CPU&GPU Club as its President/Founder. Campus life is busy!

Like with all of my other former colleges and schools, I am excelling academically, but am failing socially. I have some friends, but I never see them out of class or out of their respective clubs. Being a transfer student, I do not know anyone at the cafe other than a few former high school classmates, and everyone seems to be huddled in their own impenetrable cliques at lunch. Just like high school . I've also tried to date some girls, but the first two I tried were already taken at the very beginning . Also, this year, RMU got invaded by a record-high amount of 1000, irresponsible, partying, horny [strike]Fresh[/strike]Dirtmen, who continually invade the limited parking lots, like a plague of locusts.

And dorm life. For the most part, dorming with my Minnesota roomate, "MrColonial", has gone quite well. MrColonial occasionally has the honor of beta-testing my programming projects , and we had fun the other day resurrecting his YLoD PS3. But dorm life usually is boring. Unlike in Big Bang Theory, we never have anyone over, and we never goto anyone else's room. Other than events on campus, neither of us have been invited with other students to explore the places and restaurants of Pittsburgh. One of the things I really looked forward to in migrating to Pittsburgh is exploring the city and getting out of Boringville, but neither of us have enough friends nor the time. And all he does in his spare time, after homework and work are done, is go play GTA5. If I wanted to play videogames all day, I would have stayed home. A major reason why I migrated to RMU is to have a social life for the first time in my life, but the plans have fallen flat. I still find it odd that many of the local RMU students go back home for the weekend. So, they dorm for the week, and then drive 10 miles back to home? That kind of defeats the purpose. Oh wait, nevermind, I do that... Work is located at home.

And already, 1 month into our semester, MrColonial and I have had three major arguments. The first was when I discovered that he brought some kitchen cutting knives with his luggage into the dorm. The last thing I want is for security to discover the contraband and for both of us to get expelled from college and goto jail, and have my future flushed away due to this purely stupid and ignorant act! This ain't Minnesota, MrColonial! Zero tolerance policy on all weapons nationwide in all colleges and schools all the time, forever. I was micrometers away from doing the right thing and telling the RHA and getting him expelled for his ignorance, regardless of those knives' cooking intent. The second argument was when I, supposedly, used his bathroom towel twice and he practically got an aneurysm over it. I didn't use his towel. He wrote "Stop using my towel, fag" on the dorm room's whiteboard. He cowardly ran like a girl and tattled to the female RHA about it, instead of directly addressing the issue to my face. He claims to be an Eagle Scout; my ass. My ego reared its ugly head, and I reminded him that he has illegal contraband (kitchen knives) in his room, for which I can get him expelled for at any time, that a price of two people living in a dorm is greater than one person living alone in a dorm, and that my credentials are much greater. The RHA came and we had a quick talk. MrColonial then promptly removed the illegal kitchen knives from the dorm. There was also a minor argument when he tried and failed at removing the super-glued HD LCD TV from the dresser, which was there back when the Rez Hall was Holiday Inn. Our $100 dorm insurance would have to had pay for it, if he broke it.

The last and most explosive argument was today, when he discovered the dark, forbidden secret of my Enuresis. It is soely due to a weakened pancreas from poorly managed diabetes and blood sugars. A large reason mother and others put me on Adderall and a huge amount of other shit, which eventually made me a Type II diabetic for life, was her and other's paranoia that my Enuresis was a psychological sign of the Macdonald Triad of Sociopathy. I am not exaggerating here. At work, MrColonial texted me

MrColonial: "Tell me staight forward, did you [urinate] your bed?"

Wrong question, man; you just hit a very raw nerve. I intentionally ignored replying to this text, and my acknowledgement of his discovery soured my entire day. I was about to send him an angry, maxed-out, 500-character text message, but decided against it. He later sent:

MrColonial: "You need to buy a new mattress and talk to a RHA rep. You need help, dude."

I assumed that he was mocking my mental health rather than my physical health, and was making connections that weren't there (ie the Enuresis part of the McDonald Triad). So I was in an angry panic thinking that he would tell the RHAs about the bedwetting, that they would scream "Sociopath!" and send me to a psychiatrist, and then redo everything that I did to undo the damage done during high school with certain meds. I worried that the High School nightmare of 11th grade woud "reincarnate" itself at the college level, to speak metaphorically. Or worse, that the RHA girls or MrColonial would spread rumors that Tamkis has Enuresis and destroy my social image, or expel me from the Rez Hall, due to the cop out of being a "health hazard." Can I conquer the academic challenges of college? Yes I can. Can I make subs at Subway? Yes, I can. Academics>Enuresis. Also, these matresses are expensive.

So, with my spontaneous anger inflating, in order to get even for MrColonial writing "fagg" after I "used" his towel, and in order to shut the possibility up of him spreading bedwetting rumors, I wrote on our public whiteboard:

"Hello World! I am [MrColonial], and I am Autistic, because I have ADHD (Assinine Dick Head Disorder). I am an academic and financial conman because I abuse illegal Amphetamines (aka brain steroids) and cheat at life and college. I also love kinky men, because I am gay and Assinine.
[-----Red line-----]
Keep your nose where it belongs (literally)
-[MrTamk1s] the first, the Landlord
"

MrColonial (ab)uses Amphetamines in order to cheat at college and essentialy get stoned, due to his "recent evaluation" of him being ADHD. I recently took myself off the Adderall; why did I get him for a roomate? Whatever. All the Rez students received an email about the Federal Laws about financial aid and drug abuse. "Students" caught using beer, smoking, or using any other illegal substance (ie Amphetamines) will lose their financial aid and become stoned hobos forever.

So I sent (paraphrased):

"IF YOU KNOW WHAT IS GOOD FOR YOUR FUTURE, KEEP YOUR NOSE WHERE IT BELONGS (LITTERALLY). I CAN TERMINATE THE DORM CONTRACT AT ANYTIME. ($Dorm/1 person)>($Dorm/2ppl). IF YOU THINK I AM WETTING THE BED DUE TO THE MCDONALD TRIAD, YOU ARE A F O O L! IT IS DUE TO DIABETES."

McColonial sent back a message; I ignored it. I fled back home in order to sleep over for the night. Jasmine, the female Cockatiel, was making cute whistling noises and being cudly, as we really missed each other. (Sadly, she is the only smart member of the family, lol.) I talked to my parents about changing my status back to commuter. I am overwhelmed by the notion of having $1000s of debt, and can't stand the 'land of idiocy" that the Freshmen in our Rez Hall live in, and have given up on socializing. I have too much culture shock with the lifestyle of University students. And all the students treat RMU with such an exciting ectasy as if it were Disneyland. It is college; get a straight-jacket. Father basically said to work things out with MrColonial; go back to the dorm. I then read MrColonials message (paraphrased)

MrColonial: "I know it is due to diabetes. I was just trying to help. Your diabetes is uncontrolled. Stay at home for the next two days; I will be gone when you are back"

I am currently at the computer room at 2:00AM at the Rez Hall, and will be going back to the dorm in a few minutes, to face my doomed fate. I wouldn't be surprised if something stupid happens, such as the security guard cuffing me and charging me with "crimes against freshmen" for bedwetting. I wasted $15 on Depends today. He should be asleep by now, and I may be able to sneak in, and then face the problems in the morning, before that darn Calc III class. And now I have a major stress migrain, and a difficult solution to make. I realize my gigantic ego essentially booted my roommate out of our dorm and bit his head off, and then ate it. He and the RHAs are going to have an psychotic OCD episode, now that they know some "sociopath" named [Tamkis] wets the bed. I do not think me saying "sorry" is enough to fix the problem this time . I do not know if MrColonial is moving in with another dormer, or is withdrawing entirely out of RMU, and heading back to Minnesota. Leaving me behind with twice the cost of dorm, and him throwing his future away due to my faults and his OCD. He must think I like wetting the bed; I don't. My head hurts, and I can't think. I think I am turning into my cheap, arrogant, crude father. So many regrets today...

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Posted on 09-24-13 04:04:12 AM Link
Not to double post, but, wow, what a douche MrColonial was. Even two of my friends, after describing as much of the problem as I could without giving the Dark Secret away, described him as simply a "douche". I can't believe it, he actually moved out, and here I thought he was blowing off hot air like most men after an argument! (Then again, "he" wasn't really a man, IMO.) I just arrived back to the dorm after my homework, and find his side of the room clean for once... because everything of his is gone. Ironically, he left behind his trash. How fitting . And his shampoo, and body wash. For someone who was so OCD about cleanliness to the point where he gets an anuerism over me "using his towel" (which I did not), he sure did not live clean, and left his worshipped hygiene supplies behind. Hypocrit. I just worry that he did not go through the proper college procedures for moving out. But that will not be a major problem; it just means that he will be paying for his half of the room that he no longer uses . This is the second time in my life I stood up for myself and my ground. I always win at everything I apply myself towards. Even failure of Chem I was a win; the failure shows that I am not too overqualified for life and am not too good to be true, unlike Barbara Thomas, who destroyed her career by being Valedictorious. (I forgot that she was actually a Valedictorian, not a Saludatorian. I thought for some reason that female Valedictorians were called Saludatorians, and male Valedictorians, well, Valedictorian).

Regardless of that, I need to fill out the RMU Room Change Form ASAP, in order have the Rez Life people ship another "monkey", so that I do not fall down to "Private Room" status. (Private Room status means paying an extra $1,000 per month). Hopefully, the next monkey will have standards equal to or greater to that of a real Eagle Scout, unlike MrColonial.

Wow...

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Posted on 09-24-13 08:05:06 AM Link
Hey you.

There's no easy way to say this so I'll just say it straight.



You sound practically insane, please get off your high horse and see a therapist or something.




You're so far up your own ass that you cannot see things objectively. Things are either.

A) Bad, and someone else's fault.

or

B) Good because of your actions.


Anything not your action is bad, and anything of your own doing is good. And you'll search and spin what has happened just too convince yourself that you were already in the right the whole time. And that is not healthy behaviour at all. It just makes you shun people, which only leads to being more or less of a shut-in.



Seriously, get off your high horse, and see a therapist.

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Posted on 09-24-13 09:06:34 AM Link
Originally posted by Girlydragon
Hey you.

There's no easy way to say this so I'll just say it straight.

You sound practically insane, please get off your high horse and see a therapist or something.


You're so far up your own ass that you cannot see things objectively. Things are either A) Bad, and someone else's fault or B) Good because of your actions.

Anything not your action is bad, and anything of your own doing is good. And you'll search and spin what has happened just too convince yourself that you were already in the right the whole time. And that is not healthy behaviour at all. It just makes you shun people, which only leads to being more or less of a shut-in.

Seriously, get off your high horse, and see a therapist.


Quoted for truth.


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Posted on 09-24-13 09:54:05 AM (last edited by Pompolic at 09-24-13 09:54:45 AM) Link
Almost everything that came to my mind has been said by previous posters, so I'm seconding those opinions. I noticed one more thing:

You're quick to assume and jump to conclusions. In my opinion one has to make assumptions to accomplish anything, but evaluating the correctness of them is crucial. I'll be writing out some of the assumptions I made in writing this post to illustrate the point. (Assumption 0: I have sufficient reading comprehension and I hadn't forgotten anything from your story.)

For example:


I was in an angry panic thinking that he would tell the RHAs about the bedwetting, that they would scream "Sociopath!" and send me to a psychiatrist


He and the RHAs are going to have an psychotic OCD episode, now that they know some "sociopath" named [Tamkis] wets the bed.

I've seen nothing in your story that would point to the RHA having such a reaction. I think they would likely defer to an expert (a psychologist/psychiatrist), but I don't think they would necessarily brand you a sociopath. (Assumption 1: Your dorm's RHA is not a malicious organization but people who want to keep the dorm orderly and blah blah blah)


unlike Barbara Thomas, who destroyed her career by being Valedictorious.

There is no evidence whatsoever that this is going to ruin her future career. You've already concluded that for some reason, finishing with high marks spells doom for her for... reasons? If anything this sounds like some wish fulfillment fantasy; I'm sorry. :/ (Assumption 2: You're not leaving out anything.)


"Students" caught using beer, smoking, or using any other illegal substance (ie Amphetamines) will lose their financial aid and become stoned hobos forever.

I've also seen this in other places in your post: the assumption here is that one setback or failure will irrevocably doom one's life.

I think this sort of behavior leads to self-fulfilling prophecies. For example and in my opinion, preemptively writing a rant on the (public) whiteboard did exactly what you wanted to avoid: made you look like you're crazy, whether that is true or not.

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Posted on 09-24-13 08:16:05 PM Link
I'm sorry, but I just don't like your attitude one bit.

You always seem to assume that you're so superior simply because you're an "Eagle Scout". You also seem to have something against Autistic/ADHD/OCD people too, anyone who reads your posts in this thread might possibly think you're discriminating against disabilities. You like to believe that everyone you hate and think is a "douche" is autistic, as shown here:

"Hello World! I am [MrColonial], and I am Autistic, because I have ADHD (Assinine Dick Head Disorder). I am an academic and financial conman because I abuse illegal Amphetamines (aka brain steroids) and cheat at life and college. I also love Kinky men, because I am gay and Assinine."

I can't remember what ADHD stands for, but I know for certain that it doesn't mean "Assinine Dick Head Disorder". Trying to Blackmail him by writing on a whiteboard trying to be him wasn't really the best way to sort out the problem either. Instead of trying to calmly explain to him about your bed-wetting accident, you get overagressive, assuming that he'll tell everyone in the University about it.

Also:

If I'm so autistic, how did I graduate at the top of the class? How the hell did I succeed my expectations?

Because autistic people can do that too, you know. I know plenty of autistic people who've graduated from school and have been able to get themselves employed, including myself. You should really be careful what you say, as discrimating autism is almost as bad as racial comments.
You may think yourself as not being autistic, but trust me, getting overagressive about things that don't need any aggression at all, that's an autistic trait. I would do that a lot in my childhood (I think that died down while I was 14), but now I learn to just get over it. I can still sometimes get easily irritated now, but I don't ever show it, as I don't want to humiliate myself. I think you should do the same.

Just try to calm down and stop acting like you know everything. You're not perfect, nobody is. Just try to enjoy life and don't lash out at every single person that cares about you. They're trying to help, but they can't get everything right either. Also, I kind of agree with what Sukasa and Girlydragon said, you might want to consider seeing a therapist, before things get worse for you.

Hope this helps.

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Posted on 09-25-13 12:11:35 AM (last edited by Gabu at 09-25-13 12:13:20 AM) Link
ADHD would be Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder - basically ADD but with a hyperactive component. The APA just implemented DSM-V though, and I've read about an overhaul of that diagnostic. I think one of those overhauls is actually to have some link to autism-spectrum disorders, since apparently ADHD and autism have been discovered to be pretty related in terms of what brain areas are affected and how people are starting to realize that ADHD is not a childhood disorder but often persists into adulthood.

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