My partner deals with a lot of anxiety issues but music seems to help her so I gave her my iPod. And since then, the only time I've really had the opportunity to enjoy
my own music privately is when she's out and I'm not (which is like never).
It's weird living in a state of pure ambient noise at home, but not necessarily unpleasant, I think. I'm not really sure, to be honest. Why do people listen to music? I can't decide if this is how we were before mp3 players, CD players or the Walkman existed or what. I like that I can walk down the street and say hi to a stranger and that I'm aware of what's going on around me but music is also so sweet and pleasant. It's soothing, like painkillers but without a prescription and way easier access.
Sometimes I wonder if culturally we have a form of addiction to music because we love the stimulation so much.
Either way, I'm not going to be in "rehab" forever. I plan on getting an iPod again soon, but this time it's going to be an older one with a black and white display and typefaced in Chicago.
I'm going to get it in 20GB because it's cheaper and I figure if I've gone without music for so long I probably shouldn't feel picky about the capacity. It's not like I need every mp3 I own on my iPod, anyway. I'll keep with me only the music I cherish the absolute most, like
Funeral by Arcade Fire. And if that's not enough, upgrades are so easy to get! Like, no one gives a darn about 1.8" IDE hard drives these days, so they sell for like $20 a piece.
For that, maybe I'll have to wait until Christmas. Last Christmas, I got myself a Game Boy Pocket and partied like it was '96. This time I'll party like it's 2004.
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