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Girlydragon
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Posted on 03-06-11 08:58:14 PM

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I am not really feeling all too well,so I'm gonna do a short rant, in English so that absolutely everyone can understand, that and I believe that the English language is much superior. You ready? Here we go.

Nothing is really working at the moment, it's like playing Jenga during an earthquake. No matter how precise or careful I might be, I'll just get fucked over in the end.And each time it falls over, I just try my best to build it up again.

Eventually, it pretty much ended up with me trying build just two layers of those blocks without it falling over, even such a simple task is slowly but surely proved futile. But now, I'm not actually playing Jenga, but merely trying toget my emotions working correctly.

Even if somehow the earthquake would stop to let me give a chance to actually start building a real structure out of it usually ends with me just putting too much pressure on one set of blocks. Now... why wouldn't I? The blocks are important to me, and those that I deem worthy I place in a more demanding position of holding up the structure.

Don't, it's stupid. You may think that resting so much pressure on just a few couple blocks might be smart,but it's actually not. Sooner or later either the blocks themselves will go bad and just disappear from your structure, or you'll get bored and forget the value and just drag them out yourself. The structure collapses, and the earthquakes continue.

However, some times you're asked to build your structure in ways you didn't feel like you truly wanted,maybe you're desperately trying to make that one block not become so important. Or maybe you just don't want to try to build your structure higher and are just perfectly fine with how it is?

Eventually, you'll succumb to the pressure and try to build it higher, or put too much pressure on that one block. And the structure falls once again. But whose fault was it? Yours? Of course it wasn't, you can blame that one block, or maybe the ones who wanted you to build it higher.

Lending yourself some time, you just stop all together with building it for a while, just a short break to come back alter. But when you come back to the structure to start building it again, you realize that lots of blocks are missing. Maybe they got bored of your ways of handling them and always collapsing the building? Or maybe you just rejected them thinking that they weren't worthy your time... Or maybe, you just cannot see them.

Point is, I am trying to build the giant Jenga structure I once had in the middle of an earthquake, but I don't have nearly enough blocks to build it anymore... I can sum it up by saying that I am Sebastian Palm, 20 years of age, and I'm an egoistical depressive fucktard.

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