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Posted on 03-12-09 02:47:07 PM, in A brief update on the state of your Union... Link
Okay gees, I didn't mean to get you into a political rant.

I probably should have said overeacting instead of whining.

Originally posted by Nao
Uhhuh...and the economy...and not just the US but the entire world?


That's right. It's going to suck, but it not the end of the world regardless how bad things are right now.

Originally posted by Nao
I doubt highly that a secession happens but if it does I wouldn't be surprised and neither should anyone at this point considering the amount of disappointment that there is against the Obama administration in the way things are being handled.


Liberals overreacted just as bad when Bush got reelected for a second term. Each side tends to forget that the other side exists. But the world didn't end then did it? Things didn't get worse did they... Oh wait. But even then we weren't "not surprised if a secession occurs."

And the fact that you posted that long of a politcal rant in response to my reply only further illustrates my point that right now, conservatives seem to be completely overeacting. I was simply making a comment, not throwing all of your political beliefs into question or hailing Obama as a god.

I'm not even that interested in politics. I haven't really been following anything lately so I don't know if Obama is making a positive impact or is continuing to lead the country into a massive shithole. I'm also not 100% left. I respect republicans, they make good points. Liberals do too. I even almost voted for McCain. I just tend to be more liberal regarding most of my politcal views.

My point, if I even had one, was simply that regardless of who got elected into office, the nation should quit bickering, respect that he was chosen for office, hope he does a good job, and live with it. Then when they actually massively fuck up we can criticize them for it and remove them from office if necessary. I guarantee you that liberals would be reacting the same exact way as conservatives are right now if McCain got elected into Office. Wouldn't you be annoyed if liberals were threatening secession over it, especially since it isn't likely at all? My point is the last thing we need right now is massive political division, so we should all swallow our pride and get over it. And if the nation does go to hell, it's not 100% due to whoever happens to be in office that it did anyway. This problem has been growing for a while now. Its not going to have an overnight fix, nor will something like seceding solve it. Right now I'm wondering if it even CAN be fixed.

Also, for someone who says that they try to remain middle ground, you sure seem quick to rapidly attack and shoot down liberal viewpoints, and generalize them all into one group.

For instance, I never said that the economy is all bush's fault. I know its not. And frankly, so do most liberals despite what you may believe. Just because you've heard from a lot of people that something is so doesn't mean it is so. In fact, the liberals that do believe this, are either completely ignorant of the situation, or are more extreme left than most. It is by no means the viewpoint of all liberals, and yet, you start your argument off immediately with this assumption and attack. Plus, I like how you assume I'm strict left, although I can kind of understand considering that I classified myself as liberal. If you're going to attack my views in general on this point, you'd be more accurate in attacking the viewpoints of a political apathiest.

Plus

Originally posted by Nao
There's no 'whining' about it whatsoever - the way things are going by their thoughts is clearly unacceptable...and this isn't some minority coming in and saying this. Remember that Bush didn't win in a landslide - close to half of America did not agree with what Bush was and did not vote with him; don't forget that. It's not that any of us hate America or anything, it's far from it, and voicing concerns and trying to lead things in a positive direction is always something that liberals are going to shoot for.


I find it interesting that even by changing those key words, this statement is still true.

Neither liberals or conservatives are the enemy. Its not about whether liberals or conservatives are more right than the other. Right now, unity is more important than division over something as trivial as political views. Have we learned nothing from the civil war?

Originally posted by Nao
What we really need is direction right now, not just a person to reassure us and tell us everything will be all right when nothing's done...and I just don't see it under this administration and neither do a -lot- of people...his disapproval rating since his inauguration has been on the rise, at least.


I completely agree with you here. Frankly, I think we need another FDR, but we have Obama, and are probably on the road, if we're not already, in a depression. But still, we'll just have to bite the bullet and get by.




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Posted on 03-12-09 02:52:06 PM, in Depression problems Link
Okay, cool. Glad I could help. I wish you luck.

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Posted on 03-15-09 10:32:05 PM, in Wiper Fluid = kool-aide? Link
Originally posted by Madman200
Originally posted by Scarred Sun
At least it was probably still sweet!

What kind of twisted mind are you? ACK!
You say it's not as bad because it was probably sweet? Jesus.

Oh come on, it was a joke. Morbid humor yes, but still, I hardly think that he really believes it was a good thing.

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Posted on 03-16-09 04:40:01 PM, in Depression problems (last edited by BlackNemesis13 at 03-16-09 04:43 PM) Link
You CAN let go of that hope, trust me. In fact, you won't feel better until you do. Its just really hard, but it can be done. Nobody completely knows how to do it, but they do it anyway if they need to. I'll try to help you with my expiriences, but ultimately you need to find your own way. In my cases, I always had to be forced into getting over someone before I realized that I was capable of doing it all along.

I was going to respond to you eariler, but I'm trying to get some final papers done right now. I'll give you some more advice in a few days, but long story short. You do need to find a way to get over her.

Even if there is a possibility that she would consider you later, for now, you need to treat her response as flat out rejection. It is not worth dedicating your life to someone when you have no guarantee of that love being reciprocated. I know, I obsessed over one guy for 5 years before I finally got over him, and hell, depending on how you look at it, 11 years for the other. Waiting for someone to fall in love with you is never a good situation to be in, and it puts just as much pressure and stress on her as it does you.

Part of what I was going to say earilier is that this situation is just as stressful for her as it is for you, and although you need a direct anwser, continuing to push her into giving you one will only make her more irritated, and make things worse. And how if her answer was "I'm not sure," then you're best off accepting that as rejection even though it sounds like its not entirely so. The MSN logs seem to have proved what I was already thinking.

As I said, I'll give you some more advice in a few days, but for starters, both of you need space to breathe. There are no easy ways to get over somebody, but one way you can start that may also relieve some pressure for her, is to take a period of time, like a few months or so for starters, maybe longer, and have nothing to do with her during that time. Inform her of this of course. Tell her that you don't hate her or anything and the friendship is still good, but that you need some time for you. Actually, I'd say take a year, but that's up to you. Generally, however long you have had feelings for someone is how long it will take you to completly get over them, but at least try a few months for starters. During this time, don't hold on to the hope you have of one day hooking up with her. Instead, try your best to let it go. If things are meant to work out between the two of you later, they will anyway. If she develops feelings for you later, you'll know after you've gotten over her whether you still want the relationship or not. And if she doesn't, then you will have saved yourself a lot of stress, and possibly have preserved your friendship. If you don't find a way to get over her, then eventually your firendship with her is going to be sacrificed. She probably needs some time too. Not to think, but to just escape from the whole thing. She's feeling way too pressured. What she wants right now is for the whole situation to go away so she doesn't have to deal with it. She feels guilty because she feels this way, and she doesn't want to hurt you. But she really needs some escape.

If you tell her that you need some personal time, she's going to feel guilty because of that too. If you choose to do this, try to make her see that it will help both of you and that the whole situation is not her fault.

I'll post again later.


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Posted on 03-17-09 05:10:49 PM, in Family Guy Link
Oh yes! That's my stuff right there, I'm a complete trekker. I'm going to be completely nerding out when it airs!

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Posted on 03-18-09 02:49:45 PM, in Depression problems Link
Ok cool! I'm glad it worked out. Yeah, just focus on your friendship and you should be fine. And yeah, feeling happy again will eventually feel normal Take care.

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Posted on 03-18-09 03:00:05 PM, in The Best Website Ever? Link
Yeah, I got so creeped out by the extreme perkiness of the intro that I closed my browser before finding anything interesting on the site. All I got out of it was:

Ass + Extreme happiness = Oh dear God! They are trying to take over my soul!

I guess I'm not really a people person

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Posted on 03-18-09 03:29:45 PM, in COACH, I'VE GOT AIDS. Link
Oh God, I remember watching Captain Planet! Even as a kid , I was always rooting for either the bad guys to win, or for Captain Planet to die . I can appreciate what the show is trying to do, and you gotta admit, its subject matter is usually pretty blunt for a kids show. But the execution of it is just so frickin terrible! Its nearly unwatchable, even if you're a kid! The editing alone made me feel like I needed a dramamine, and those horrible accents need to die in a fire. I never realized how bad they were.

This is actually one of the few episodes that I clearly remember. The other was some sort of arc that pitched the planeteers against Captain Pollution and his pollutioneers or whatever. And that's only because I clearly remember rooting for Captain Pollution! I think there was also one episode that was about the conflict in the Middle East with Israel. What's really weird though is I think that video brought back some repressed memories of me once having a crush on Wheeler

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Posted on 03-18-09 03:35:02 PM, in FemBot Link
Or Austin Powers.

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Posted on 03-18-09 03:40:24 PM, in Smell like Kirk (last edited by BlackNemesis13 at 03-18-09 03:40 PM) Link

"No Worf scent? You know, peaty, with a hint of lilac."

I lol'd. The comments on that site are awesome! Personally I'm more interested in the Star Trek film than the scents, and I forgot all about the film until reading that article just now.

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Posted on 03-21-09 01:36:04 PM, in Hello im rockman Link
Yeah, that's what actually got me to start posting. I've been a lurker since I2 though. I think I first registered in 2005, but didn't become active until Board2.

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Posted on 03-22-09 05:15:14 PM, in Random depression. Link
To add to that, I'm not sure I can be of much help with the suicide thing, but I can tell you that an attitude like this:

Originally posted by Giga
I think the thing I need the most right now is a girlfriend.

Is not a good mindset, and is potentially destructive. I kept waiting for someone to "save me from myself" a hundred times, and i can tell you right now that that way of thinking is only bullshitting yourself.

Simply, if you rely on someone else to fix all of your problems, then they will never be fixed. You can seek help, (and personally, I really think you should, but I can understand if you don't want to because I HATE phychiatrists) but ultimately, the only person who can truly fix your problems is you. You need to focus on fixing your own problems BEFORE you enter into a relationship. Entering into a relationship hoping that the relationship itself will fix it, dooms that relatinship to failure, only creates more problems, and potentially brings the other person down with you rather than them raising you up. Its the same idea with all of these people who have a bad relationship, and have a baby hoping that the baby will fix it. The baby only makes things worse! The relationship has to be solved first becasue that is where the problem is. If you are feeling suicidal and depressed, the problem has to be dealt with from within. A relationship is only going to make things worse, because you are not in a good mindset to handle it if you are feeling that way.

As for the whole meaning of life, (as if anyone knows ,) it's been my expirience that your life is whatever you make it to be. You have to be willing to work and fight to make it what you want, but its always worth it. People strive to better themselves because it gives them a reason to exist, and helps them define who they are. No one knows if our lives have any meaning at all, they probably don't, and quite frankly, it doesn't matter. What matters is that this life is all we have, so we may as well make it the way we want it. As pointless as life may be, I think its even more pointless to end it. I mean hey, we've already had how many 1000s of years of not existing before we are finally born? We only have 100 years or so to actually exist, and then we go right back to not existing again. Why are so many people in such a hurry? The way I see it, life should be savored.

It's like a hershey bar, (and please excuse all of my bad analogies. Curse this english class I'm taking.) Sure it tastes kind of shitty, but its frickin candy dammit! And you can only get one, ever! Don't just throw it away! Savor each piece until its gone. On that line, life is simultaneously a gift and a battle. It's a battle because the goal is to survive, and to survive, you have to learn how to be a warrior. Plus, the process of fighting the battle changes who you are and makes you into a better person. It's like a gift, because we didn't ask for it, and despite all the shit we may have to deal with, ultimately life is still good! Its just that sometimes we let ourselves fall into a mindset that prevents us from seeing the good in it. It's easy to get caught up in all of the negative aspects of our life to the point where we blind ourselves to the positive side of it. Many times there are more positive things in our lives than negative, but we're still depressed simply because we don't let ourselves see it that way. I don't know if I'm making sense or not, so sorry if all of this crap lost you.

Basically what I'm trying to say is, each of us is entirely in control of our own lives. Its just that sometimes it becomes easier to deal with our life circumstances if we just view ourselves as powerless victims. If your life sucks, its a lot easier to think "well this isn't my fault. Other people are forcing my life to suck. I'm just a powerless victim. I can't change how things are. There's nothing I can do. No matter what things are always going to suck. I should just keep lazing around and wait for the end to come because life sucks, or speed up the end because I don't want to wait. Life is pointless anyway, I don't have to take responsibility for it sucking." However, although its harder, you are A LOT happier if you think in a way that requires you to take action and accept responibility for your own situation, even if it IS mainly due to outside influences. Thoughts such as "Hey, wth? My life sucks! Why does my life suck? My life doesn't have to suck! I'm in control of my own life. Why am I letting my life suck? My life didn't always suck, what changed to make it suck? Well, I'm stopping this shit! I'm not going to put up with this shit anymore! I'm taking action! What can I do to make my life better? What's having a negative influence on me? Who or what is trying to control me, and why am I letting them have control? I am not responsible for what life throws ate me, but I am responsible for how I let it affect me. I'm dealing with my problems instead of letting them control who I am. I'll use them to help me become who I want to be, and no one else."

The way I see it, if life keeps dealing you circumstances that are complete suckage, you can either give up, let them destroy you, and ruin your life, or you can refuse to let it beat you and put in the effort needed to make your life the way you want it. From what I know about people who have committed suicide, (which I admit is little,) they tend to be the people who don't want to take responsibility for the way their life is. In some cases this is understandable, since I know some people can be in some pretty shitty situations. But still, ultimately, the only person who can fix our problems is ourselves. If we let ourselves feel victimized to whatever life throws at us, then we throw off all responsibilty we have to fix it, and in so doing, we doom ourselves.

To kill yourself is to spit in the face of whoever gave you life, and whoever was a part of your life. It's to throw a gift into the garbage right in front of them while shouting "FUCK YOU!" Its the same as saying "I should have never been born, my life was meaningless, and therefore all of your lives are meaningless, and you should all kill yourselves too." People often don't realize how many other people their lives have touched. No one is EVER entirely alone. When one person is lost, many people feel the repercussions. To kill yourself is the same as giving up the fight. It's the coward's way out because it's the easier way out. It is to admit defeat, and to give your enemies power over you. It gives you a way to escape adversity, but life isn't about escaping adversity. We define who we are by how we deal with adversity. That's the challenge, and that's what makes life worth living.

Plus, I know its been said a dozen times, but suicide really is a PERMANANT solution to a TEMPORARY problem. How old are you? It sounds like most of your problems are coming from school and home. I know that right now that's practically your whole life which is why it sucks, but eventually, and sooner than you think, you'll graduate from school, and you'll move out. Then those problems will practically be solved on their own. I gurantee you that in like 5 years, you'll look back on all of the things making you depressed and think "Oh wow, I was going to kill myslef over something as dumb as that?! What was I thinking?!" Part of it is groing up too. Adolescence tends to make us take the tiniest things and blow them WAY out of proportion. It's the reason a lot of teens end up commiting suicide. The fact that you are taking any type of mental medication probably isn't helping the whole swarm of chemical imbalances that are already going on right now either.

Anyway, once you graduate, school isn't mandatory anymore. You can go to college if, and when you feel like it, and focus more on working first, and doing what YOU want. Plus, when you turn 18, you are legally able to move out. If your home life really is that shitty, I'd spend my time more toward figuring out how I can financially support myself on my own, when that time comes, than thinking about all of the reasons why I should kill myself. As for school, the whole system sucks. Don't get me wrong, I was a straight A student, but I know its not for everybody. The format isn't meant to TEACH you anything, just to make sure the school appears to meet the status quo. And quite frankly, grades are next to meaningless. The stuff I was actually interested in, I always just taught myself. If I were you, I'd focus on just doing what I can to get by and graduate quickly without having to repeat any courses. Don't stress out about grades, focus on what's important to you. If you need motivation, think of it this way, "the sooner I can complete school and get all of this crap out of the way, the sooner I'll NEVER have to deal with it any more. Then I can get a job, support myself, move out, and start living my life MY way."

Sorry this went on so long. I know I don't really know what I'm talking about with regard to this whole situation, but I hope that maybe my ramblings can help you out in some way.

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Posted on 03-23-09 07:55:13 PM, in Hello im adjectivenountwocharacternumber Link
Although Mario is a noun, it's being used as an adjective in that context though. Mario is being used to describe the other noun in the name.

Ex: What type of men are they?

They are Mario men.

Its the same when people say they are playing Mario games. In that context, Mario is also being used as an adjective. Words that decribe nouns are adjectives. Mario describes the type of games being played. Not saying it's correct use, but is is generally accepted use.

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Posted on 03-27-09 09:25:48 PM, in Depression problems (last edited by BlackNemesis13 at 03-27-09 09:27 PM) Link
Damn. Sorry to hear that. I don't really know what to tell you. However, don't blame yourself for it. There could be many legitimate reasons for it.

It could be a sign that there are still things you need to change. However, if you are truly happy now with everything regarding Natalie, and don't feel that any more changes are necessary, then it probably just means that mentally, you are still adjusting to everything. Since you've only just recently changed your whole perspective regarding her, this is understandable. You've taken the first step toward making the situation a healthy one for you, but its still going to take time for you to completely adjust to it.

One explaination I can think of regarding this, is that although you have made a positive decision, its likely that this soon, emotionally, you are still not completely over Natalie. This is totally understandable, and I would actually be amazed if this is not so. If you've liked someone for a while, even once you choose not to pursue it, those feelings don't just automatically dissappear. It becomes a process of dealing with them until they eventually don't bother you anymore. If I had to make a guess, I'd say that this recent breakdown is a sign that there are still feelings there, and they are either not being dealt with or are being repressed in some way. I mean, don't get me wrong. To an extent you have to repress them since when it comes to dealing with these feelings, you can't get her involved. but they still have to be dealt with from within and not just cast aside. Are you actually trying to face and deal with these feelings within yourself, or are you just kind of ignoring them and shoving them away? It's hard to explain. Basically, I've found that even if you generally feel happy with your life, if you're not completely honest with yourself regarding how you feel about something, or if you refuse to face your inner demons, they find a way to express themselves in some other way. That MAY be what this is, but other things could be causing it too.

For one thing, did you know that it is actually possible for the human body to become addicted to emotional states? I read somewhere that an addiction to an emotional frame of mind can be as difficult an addiction to kick as heroine. There are different levels of addiction however. For most of us, it basically means that however we are generally used to feeling, whether it is a good emotional state or not, is what we will usually seek out to feel. Its supposed to explain why people will often continually put themselves in the same situations over and over again, even if they know those situations are bad. they become a weird source of comfort simply because they are familiar. People tend to seek out the same types of relationships, even if they are negative, because they have grown accostomed to their relationships feeling a certain way. Consequentially, when a person suddenly decides to make a positive change that totally changes their emotional state, its like the body goes into shock and wants to revert back to what's familiar. This could also be what your recent breakdown was a sign of.

I guess you could view it the same way as a dramatic change in diet. Lets say you've had a very unhealthy diet all of your life, and suddenly decided that it was time to start eating healthy. Your body goes into starvation mode and starts storing fat because its not used to the change. Also, eventually you'll get unhealthy cravings again because those foods are what you have grown accostomed to. This recent crash may just be your body's way of resisting the positive changes you have made. Its grown accostomed to feeling depressed long enough to resist feeling happy because happy is actually uncomfortable. It's become unfamilar right now. You stated earlier that it felt weird to feel happy again. Maybe this breakdown was a way for your body to reclaim the familiarity of drepression as weird as that sounds. I know I've had similar things happen to me. Often, if a situation feels too perfect, I'll start looking for ways to mess it up just so I can feel more comfortable with it.

Anyway, if any of these are the cause, then you can be assured that the crashs are only temporary as long as you continue adjusting your frame of mind in a postive manner. It is a process, but if you focus on not letting this situation way you down, let it be a positive influence, and are genuinly happy most of the time, then eventually the crashes should subside. Eventually, your new state of mind will become the normal familiarity that your body will try to revert back to, and you will be a lot healthier in that situation. Ultimatly, everything boils down to your state of mind.

Of course, the breakdowns could also be a sign of just stress in general, or many other things less dire. Maybe something totally unrelated, when mixed with your recent drama triggered a reaction that otherwise might not have happened. I don't know. You are actually the best judge when it comes to determining exactly what the breakdowns mean to you. It's like deciphering the meaning of a dream. Most likely, its representative of something, or is your body's way of expressing some aspect of your life that needs expressed. I'll still get nosebleeds in this way. For me, they are usually a sign that I am under too much stress or am bullshitting myself over something. Either that, or its just that the air is too dry, but still. Don't treat these breakdowns as failure. Treat them more as warnings or reality checks that something may need to be fixed or addressed. Analyze what you think they mean, and try to improve the area that you think is the cause.

Edit: Damn, I didn't realize that this post was that long I do tend to ramble.


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Posted on 03-27-09 10:00:24 PM, in So on jobs... (last edited by BlackNemesis13 at 03-27-09 10:03 PM) Link
I used to work in fast food at Arby's. I worked the backline, making the food away from all of the customers. I would also open the store, do all of the prep, and occasionally close the store. It wasn't bad, but I wanted better pay, and eventually I hated everyone working there. I was also really good at this job. Good enough to where they started to rely on me too much to do EVERYTHING to the point where I was constantly stressed out, so I quit.

Then I worked at Citigroup as a mailclerk/machine operator in the presort division. I could write a dissertation on how much that job sucked. It actually made Arby's sound like a dream job! For one thing, I had to work 3rd shift which I never liked, and that alone weighed on me after a while. Then, i never did know exactly what the hell I was supposed to be doing out there since no one is EVER trained. Then the moral corruption everywhere made me sick, management was retarded, people would randomly get fired over the dumbest shit, and in general, everyone is just treated like pure crap. There is absolutely no job security. Employees are constantly screwed over, lied to, manipulated, ripped off, and have unrealistic demands placed on them. Plus, the place isn't even safe. About once every 3 months someone would develop a staph infection, certain people out there stalked me to an extent, and most of the time, we were forced to fix the machines ourselves, which we are not trained to do, and is dangerous (especially when some dumb shit doesn't realize that you are fixing the machine and starts it up anyway, which happened like everyday.)

Anyway, that was just the tip of the iceburg, so I quit there and actually went back to Arbys. And what's scary is that I'm actually happy at Arbys now. It's by no means a career or anything, but it's good enough for now. I just got myself back in college too, and its a good job to have in order to support myself through it. My schedule there is a lot less stressful and more flexible now. It feels so good to actually be GOOD at my job again istead of dreading it every day, and I love working normal hours again. Plus, the people I couldn't stand there either had left, or after Citi, didn't bother me at all anymore. Plus I am actually respected out there instead of treated like dirt constantly. It actually feels more like a second home than a job. I guess that's pretty cool.


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Posted on 03-27-09 10:15:29 PM, in Dear calculus: Link
For me, how hard it is really depends on who is teaching the course. I aced calculus in high school because I had an awesome teacher. Once I took it in college though, I failed hard. Luckily, at the college I'm attending now, I tested out of all of the required math courses. But yeah, if I wanted to take another math course, I'd definitely need a refresher. I've come across no need for calculus in everyday life, unless I want to better understand some higher level physics lectures that I listen to in my spare time. That, or just to keep my math skills sharp.

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Posted on 03-28-09 10:32:44 AM, in Depression problems Link
It should go away yeah, as long as you are doing something to address the cause. This week could be nothing, or it could be a sign that there is some other underlying problem that has nothing to do with Natalie that needs to be addressed. Like I said, many things could be causing it. If you really don't know what could be causing it, you may have a chemical imbalance of some sort. You may have some mild form of clinical drepression that may need medicinal treatment, and if so then that is beyond my area of expertise. Then again, something as simple as eating unhealthy can be enough to make you feel down in the dumps. I'm really just throwing out guesses here. I'd give it more time to see if it subsides, but also not worry too much about it, as that will just make you feel more depressed. If there is a cause, try to identify it. Just knowing what's causing it will probably make you feel a lot better. Uncertainty can be a really depressing thing. I hate to give you just more uncertainty, but I really don't have enough information to judge what's causing it.

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Posted on 04-04-09 03:30:45 AM, in Conficker Link
True. But the general idea is that different anti-virus software programs aren't always compatible with each other. Two of them installed on the same hard drive can potentially cause problems. Some programs will even identify other antivirus programs as a threat, and possibly render them inoperable. I've never had this happen personally, but I've always understood that to be the theory. For this reason, I'll have only one installed on a system, but use either a portable anti-virus or an online scanner to double check for infection. Really though, I only do this on other computers that I know are prone to infection (due to idiots constantly working on them). On my own, I rarely bother with anti-virus unless I have reason to suspect infection. With my browsing and downloading habits, I don't really need it. All antivirus software really does for me is hog resources. Usually, its not that hard to avoid getting infected. I'll still check every once in a while to make sure though.

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Posted on 04-08-09 12:39:01 AM, in Do you like lemons? Link
Monin syrups are awesome. We use them to flavoe our iced teas at work. Their red passion fruit syrup is epic win, whether it's in tea or in lemonade.

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Posted on 04-10-09 09:32:19 PM, in How hot should I go? Link
Originally posted by Sakura
Uh...the 16 mill is not edible.

You will die a horrible, painful, excruciating death.

Originally posted by Wikipedia
Even the stupidest of all, would not dare to consume an entire bottle. The heat of the hot sauce is excruciatingly unbearable as most tasters suffer from constant perspiration and tears till half an hour. The hot sauce should not be used for flavors at any cost. A single grain into a pan of tomato soup can spice up the taste to such an extent that you will die out of heat.

Lazar’s taste buds are almost immune to the heating sensation of his creations but he still remembers his first taste of the incredible ‘16 Million Reserve’. He declares that the pain was unbearable and in his words, it was like a hammer was brutally hitting his tongue. More so, his tongue had swelled up for days to come.

Holy shit, the guy actually TASTED this stuff and lived?!


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