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Posted on 02-21-22 08:27:44 PM Link | Quote
I think they call that psychosis.

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Originally posted by rokken
I think they call that psychosis.

rather blunt, but true. i do have a lot of problems with psychosis. it can get really bad. but it can also be fun. arguably my whole system is psychosis

words words words

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Posted on 02-21-22 08:33:00 PM Link | Quote
Specifically the disassociating from this reality part, not necessarily the plurality part. I kinda wish I could disassociate from reality. I have a vivid imagination, but being able to do that or lucid dream or something would be cool and probably help at least a little with writing;.

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dissociation is a blessing and a curse for me. i've got this weird issue where if i'm scared enough i'll start seeing and feeling myself turning into an animal (sometimes into my fursona). then it's fucking awesome and i get to be an animal

other times it's horrifying. just loud screaming voices for no reason. the most cliche schizophrenic screams. it's really not necessary

i'd love to take antipsychotics to make the voices go away, but i feel like psychosis helps bring me closer to God, and to my internal, fuzzier self.

if you want to try dissociation though, there's plenty of drugs out there that allow you to experiment with it relatively easily. just don't do them all the time though

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Posted on 02-21-22 08:41:45 PM Link | Quote
Originally posted by rokken
Specifically the disassociating from this reality part, not necessarily the plurality part. I kinda wish I could disassociate from reality. I have a vivid imagination, but being able to do that or lucid dream or something would be cool and probably help at least a little with writing;.

Real dissociation tends not to be what you're imagining, unfortunately. The experience is (usually) much more dull and grey and lifeless than anything.

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Posted on 02-21-22 08:43:21 PM Link | Quote
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Originally posted by Whom
Originally posted by rokken
Specifically the disassociating from this reality part, not necessarily the plurality part. I kinda wish I could disassociate from reality. I have a vivid imagination, but being able to do that or lucid dream or something would be cool and probably help at least a little with writing;.

Real dissociation tends not to be what you're imagining, unfortunately. The experience is (usually) much more dull and grey and lifeless than anything.

really? dissociation for me has been, maybe not extremely colorful, but definitely not dull and lifeless... it's probably different for everyone, then

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A friend of mine who's into LSD and has taken it with me nearby multiple times said it's probably not a great idea since I have mild schizophrenia (which I know is a different thing from psychosis), but I suppose that's probably for the same reason. I was interested, but ultimately don't really know where I'd get it, so who knows if I'll ever try it.
Hopefully the drug war ends sometime so that it becomes easy to find in publicly facing, if still kinda skeezy, shops. It's probably the only psychoactive drug I have any curiosity about. I'd totally be cool with seeing myself in my sona's body, even for just a few minutes, that'd be awesome!

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make sure to try drawing while you're at it, it always turns into something really cool

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I will, if I ever do it.

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