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Posted on 05-07-18 07:54:51 PM Link | Quote
ennui sucks.
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Posted on 05-11-18 10:21:38 AM Link | Quote
yep
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Posted on 05-12-18 04:12:29 AM Link | Quote
total bummer
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Posted on 05-26-18 02:34:28 PM Link | Quote
yea
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Posted on 05-26-18 03:40:09 PM Link | Quote
Fuck, looks like someone needs DMT.
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Posted on 06-05-18 12:45:51 AM Link | Quote
no idea what that means
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Posted on 06-05-18 02:51:22 AM Link | Quote
*offers hugs*
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Posted on 06-05-18 02:23:48 PM Link | Quote
It's not for everyone, by all means. And it finds you.

I'm just saying everything is relative and democracy leaves everyone exhausted and small in the end.

Human living expects too much comprimise today won't you agree?
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Posted on 06-05-18 10:13:10 PM Link | Quote
living in general expects too much out of us; life was easier when we were all stupid and not connected 24/7

but at the same time i'd be without all my friends.
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Posted on 06-16-18 12:53:14 AM Link | Quote
anyone else think being severely depressed and starved of human connection and burying yourself in different fantasy worlds to try to cope with the fact that reality is a miserable place and prolly always will be is "the new hot shit of 2018"
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Posted on 06-16-18 12:53:46 AM Link | Quote
thats me btw, in case anyone was wondering who i was talking about. i was talking about me
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Posted on 06-16-18 02:58:33 PM Link | Quote
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Posted on 06-16-18 04:01:02 PM Link | Quote
I used to confide in fantasy to get me through those worse days.

I think as long as you're doing your best living as the person you truly are and doing the things that make you happy it changes the way people look at you and interact with you, lots more smiles and random friendships!



Although, gender identity disorder is such a shit situation mind you, how it feels like it hits you in waves every few months.


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Posted on 06-17-18 01:35:04 AM Link | Quote
Originally posted by Nyanners
I think as long as you're doing your best living as the person you truly are and doing the things that make you happy it changes the way people look at you and interact with you, lots more smiles and random friendships!

im not doing any of that and im not in a position where i can really

sounds nice tho
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Posted on 06-17-18 05:41:09 AM Link | Quote
Originally posted by Lunaria


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Posted on 06-17-18 05:44:06 AM Link | Quote
Originally posted by Nyanners
I used to confide in fantasy to get me through those worse days.

this is what i used to do for most of 2003-2009 with someone until Thingsā„¢ happened and we stopped being friends. it was the only thing that kept me sane for a lot of it and my mental collapse when it happened, in retrospect, is not exactly unexpected

i have never really gotten back into that, though i imagine it would help, just because real life is terrible in almost every aspect. and i know that my life is better than a lot of others, just because i make pretty good money for what is admittedly a shit job that i hate.

at least with fantasy i can be someone who gets to explore situations and be different and not worry about kissing someone's ass for 9 hours every day, or having to expend actual effort being responsible (lol)

ah well
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Posted on 07-27-18 07:50:26 AM Link | Quote
i miss people

i miss fun

i miss exploring things with people

that's all i wanted to say i guess
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Posted on 07-27-18 07:56:52 AM (last edited by Rambly at 07-27-18 08:00:11 AM) Link | Quote
i guess to expand on that i wish i'd spent more time... doing the things i needed to come into my own so i'd had more time to just, be a person who could do things with other people - sharing interests or the things that excite me and another person and exploring the possibilities of those things and... being creative and making music or games or drawings or whatever, expressing myself...

i wish i knew why i felt like i wasn't getting that

i wish i hadn't spent so much time just not expressing myself or bothering to explore the sides of myself that i wanted to but felt ashamed of

i wish i'd matured sooner and not at fucking 26 or 27 (assuming, of course, that i've matured at all lol)

i wish i knew why i felt like i wasn't really living and that the chance has escaped me completely




i feel like something's missing from me but i can't put into words what
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Posted on 07-27-18 03:33:11 PM Link | Quote
People are so busy with their super important lives/careers/educations that they forget that life is what happens when you're making plans, they are always distracted too much to think about it though.

It's a bit shit when you feel like you've woken up in a world full of sleeping people.
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Posted on 07-27-18 04:01:17 PM Link | Quote
that feels an awful lot like "have you tried just being less depressed"


like gosh, i sure wish i wasn't busy with work, it's a shame i need it to not die
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