ParaLax
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| Posted on 04-11-12 12:29:15 AM (last edited by ParaLax at 05-05-12 01:49:16 PM) |
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Food for Thought - Confession
There is something that I have to get off of my chest; I just hope that I have the strength and courage to go through with it.
I have loved every second that I have posted on this forum, there has not been a moment on here that I regret spending, but I am putting all that into jeopardy. You think you know me, you probably don't. I did my best to hide who I was, but here is now it started...
I was at a friends house about a year ago; I did not know what to do, so I registered on the Jul forums, wanting to start afresh, not really sure what had sparked that in me. I was a new me. I had been a new me for some time. I still am that new me. But now, months and months later, I realize that while I had been revealing my innermost self to this forums, I had not been truthful with you all.
'ParaLax' is just an alias. I am actually the once-noob known as ''. The username itself makes me cringe, but I deal with it on all forums I am at. To prove myself better. Go on, I would expect you all to pounce on me and ban me and be happy that you got rid of me, but why?
Why must I hide under a different name, when the reason that I made friends around here during the time I was active was because I was me. Because I was showing my true nature. Because I was a new person??
I only plead that I am let on as normal, not banned, free to continue to post here under a clear conscience. I only plead that you guys remember me for my behavior here as Paralax, nothing else. ParaLax is who I am, remember that. I am that same guy.
In case I don't ever get to say this again. I think this community is awesome. I think that the users are awesome. I only wish that I can continue with you guys. But if my deceit was too much, then farewell  |
ReiNi
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SIDEWAYS SLASHContrary to what it might seem, generally everyone is cool with people who honestly change.
People just get rebanned on sight because they didn't, and/or were going to be banned anyway without even knowing they were a rereg.
And I think some members had shadier pasts yet there's no problem anymore and it's all fine.
You should've asked to be let in before, though, rather than just sneaking like that. But eh.
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Lyskar
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-The Chaos within trumps the Chaos without-
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| | Metal_Man88's Post | Meh, it's not like you did anything beyond reregging ages ago and posting stupid spam. That was 2 years ago. Some people might care but me? Nah... though do keep in mind not to repeat past mistakes. That would just be silly.
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Girlydragon
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| Posted on 04-11-12 05:13:40 PM (last edited by Girlydragon at 04-11-12 02:15 PM) |
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I FUCKING KNEW IT.
Gosh please tell me that I called this somewhere, I was thinking of it so many times.
Like I was so sure of it. It was so... Obvious.
With that said, whatever.
I'm personally past of my days of PERMANENT BANS ARE ALWAYS PERMANENT GOD NO EXCEPTIONS GOSH HUMBUG.
Eh, the rest is cool with it so.
Edit: Actually it had me fooled in the beginning, at first I just thought you were some random user.
But sometime between now and then it came to me.
Oh, why did I not call it. 
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Lyskar
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| | Metal_Man88's Post | Mostly because in the ages past, idiots were the biggest problem, and Jul was made to get us away from them. That partially stands today.
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Girlydragon
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I'd also say it's because we have a sort Quality > Quantity policy, both regarding users and posts.
I'd like to think as membership on Jul as a privilege, not a right.
Hihi.
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ParaLax
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| Posted on 04-11-12 11:01:20 PM (last edited by ParaLax at 04-11-12 08:02 PM) |
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You don't know how much of a relief it is to have put this out. Every day of the past month, I thought about when would be an appropriate time to actually post this, but I just could not bring myself to do it. Oh, the responses. I was originally bewildered about the positive responses, but I am ecstatic to see them nevertheless.
One favor please, I am still ParaLax, same person, same tastes. Please don't actually relate any of my past with my present (especially you GirlyDragon), as I think that in the long run, I have changed waay to much for any of that to really have any applicability to the present. I was a new transformed person inside.
Reshiram: I had actually sent a few PMs from time to time on the old account asking to be unbanned. I think most of those were quickly deleted / ignored (Probably for good reason). I just never wanted to take the risk of losing this one
Thanks for understanding!
GirlyDragon:
Metal_Man88: No worries, I do not think that I ever had the conception of Quantity > Quality, but for a few days during that JCS (I admit)  . I would not ever do what I had done here originally. I feel as if the part of me that was capable doing such senseless spam is so alien or so dead that I don't think that I would have it in me to do it any sizable quantity.
Thanks for understanding!
dotUser: Thanks! 
Ijah: Thanks for understanding
GirlyDragon: A paragon of hindsight bias 
I sure as hell won't abuse the privilege of being here, would be like chopping my arm off
Don't worry.
I am sure that I have offended a few users and a few more that will dislike me for this, and my response is "Sorry". I can't think of anything else to add to that. |
legacyme3
"In short, legacyme3 does horrible things to people, and I don't think anyone else on Jul should be exposed to him, no matter how decent of a person he pretends to be."
I don't normally ban for offsite behavior but you're a whole level of terrible.
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Somehow I am not terribly surprised.
As I recall, early in my Jul career on a post, you replied saying something about Vizzed, and from there, that left a very small amount of people you could have been.
But that aside, meh, if people change, hey give them a second chance.
Not much else to say on the matter. ____________________ What Would Leggy Do? |
