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MilesH the one hundred dollar golden name Level: 56 Posts: 713/746 EXP: 1356727 For next: 41449 Since: 03-13-10 Since last post: 12.0 years Last activity: 12.0 years |
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| Sorry for my actions
I wanted to apologise for my actions and for the way I acted towards you folks, and I owe a huge apology to xkeeper, sorry I didn't give any of you the chance to help me when I kept going down my negative path. I have been really immature and a twat and I must of hurt all of you while I kept lashing out and thinking that everyone was against me. God I'm so fucked up and I didn't know what I was doing yesterday and I was barely aware of my actions and it was wrong for me to attack xkeeper and say all of those nasty things. But now the damage I did is done and I don't think I deserve another chance for my negative actions and I know you've all tried to help me when I made those threads in the officer club, and believe me I did reread all the meaningful posts there and felt like that there was actual hope for me. But now I feel like I shattered that into oblivion, seeing as everyone here at Jul will probably hate me now, but I don't care if I'm hated by every Jul'er forever, I still need to apologise for my actions and I'm not sure if I'll ever be forgiven or not. And I was totally wrong on the elders word, xkeeper you were right it doesn't really matter what age and I should believe that because age wasn't a concern to me either when I still was dating on SL my 18 year old brasil girl, and I know I shouldn't keep reminding myself of it but I've been making some improvements in my life and I'm almost over the relationship ordeal and I feel like I can move on from SL. But its probably much too late for that now, seeing as I attacked many of the good people at Jul that have only tried to help me and all I did was backlash when I shouldn't of and I sounded really pathetic in my post responses to xkeeper, I did step out of line and its probably too late for me to take back all the nasty things that I had said since like I said before, the damage is done. Many of you will probably continue hating me even after I've written this apology, and sorry that I haven't had a good life and that I have not tried to even improve my life, its something that I will have to work on, even if I disappear from Jul forever. Again I'm sorry for my actions and I was immature and I do need to grow up, I'm not the good kind hearted person that I thought that I was, and I forgive easily but I don't know if anyone will forgive me. |



























