oh god i had a couple of winners of dreams the last few nights. warning: long as shit, slightly dark
DREAM A (two nights ago):
i had a dream that starts off with babar was my roommate and he was an ASSHOLE
so like. he was a teenager in the dream for some reason and i was still living with my parents and my parents decided to let him live at our house and basically adopted him. so anyway the STUPID DICK ELEPHANT was a FUCKING asshole. he used to take showers that were way too long and always used up all the goddamned shampoo. he constantly mocked me for my weight and peppered his speech towards me with "fatass" and high-larious "rambly is fat" jokes (that i always laughed sarcastically at, like, "ha ha ha ha ha ha" rofl good one babar). and he was just generally unpleasant and rude to be around. he mocked me constantly for being bad at video games in the hopes that i'd let him play the xbox 360. and one time i wouldn't let him have it so he started pulling my hair hoping i'd drop the controller so he could play it. fuck you, babar.
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there was a time skip in the dream and eventually babar grew up, became a lot nicer, and started going to elephant college, which was the same as regular college. my parents kept calling it "elephant college" but he was literally just going to wash u.
i found out later that babar had disappeared completely. around this time my parents started.. acting... really weird. like they kept talking about how much they hated babar and they were glad he was gone. just when i'd started feeling bad for that sweet little elephant boy.
one day when i was in class (i was in college too) i started seeing all these... colored lines around everything, like everything was glitching out (i think my brain stole this effect from into the spider-verse). and then i ended up walking home from class and all of a sudden i fell into some alternate dimension which was just... this weird circular room with a view of the sky
(cw rest of dream: nazism, literal hitler)
this woman named Alexandria, apparently assistant director of this place, along with a guy named Bob, the project leader, explains to me that because the planet earth is running out of space — that there's too many people on the planet for its "RAM", so-to-speak — reality is now falling apart. she explains that Babar is now up here because of that.
she continues, saying that i was brought here on a temporary basis and would be sent back to regular earth to facilitate their plan, which was to kill a bunch of people. the dregs, the criminals and the worst scum of society. i object to this on what i think are pretty justified moral grounds
for a while i argue about it with her and her team and i relent because i don't have any good ideas and don't wanna be fucking thanos. so while Bob is up on a whiteboard explaining exactly how to execute this plan cogs are turning in my head and i realize "wait, what if the theory was wrong" so i run off to go find Alexandria to explain to her how we can fix the universe without essentially committing mass murder. turns out she's in a meeting with some "interested parties"
i open the door to their conference room and it turns out she's talking with a few of her associates and
GODDAMNED HITLER AND GOEBBELS AND HIMMLER WHAT THE FUCK
apparently the nazis have been working together with her on this project for a while and are pretty chummy. i’m pretty exasperated at first but i’m explained to that they’re Not Evil Anymore and blah blah blah. i don’t want my idea to get sidelined, so fine
i bring up my big revelation which is that the earth probably isn't being drained by its "RAM" but is actually probably being drained through its "CPU", which i explain is happening because everybody is so busy and overworked and miserable and stressed, not because there's too many people. she's initially receptive to this idea and even the nazis are kind of interested in a curious way
she decides to hold a vote among the project leaders to stick with the original plan. the nazis are the deciding vote, and goebbels and himmler are about to vote "kill a bunch of people" when i pull out a sword and hold it to hitler's head and say, "if you vote to go through with this genocide i will KILL your glorious leader"
(it bothers me how many of my dreams involve me threatening to kill fascists with swords and i'm pretty sure i have a complex. i don't think about that kind of shit that often in real life normally i swear)
so hitler, fucking says, in his thick austrian accent,
"*tch* ohh, killing me isn't that satisfying. trust me, i've done it before."
BADUMPSH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOW!!!!!!!!! GOOD ONE FUCKING, ADOLF HITLER, YOU FUCKING MONSTER
unfortunately Alexandria decides we're not going to hold the vote because i threatened to kill someone (oops) so her goons start chasing after me. i'm hiding out somewhere on the base for this project for a while (i see babar, btw, at some point, confirming that he's at least alive and well)
at some point, Alexandria comes and decides to have a chat with me. she determines that even if the CPU plan isn't perfect, it's at least worth a shot and would be better than killing a bunch of people, and if it doesn't work we can try something else.
we then leave the broom/cleaning supplies closet i'm in and find out that oops, the nazis have taken over, and, WOW what a surprise, they're moving to do major evil nazi shit, immediately and effectively. even Bob is shocked (somehow Alexandria and Bob are blindsided by the fact that the nazis were evil), and he issues orders for the remaining people to return to earth immediately to halt this shit. i get in this weird ship and the grey background of heaven turns sky blue to signal that i'm back in the real world
unfortunately then i woke up. dammit
dream B (two nights ago):
irl background: i used to be on this zelda fangame forum. every week they have a screenshot contest called Screenshot of the Week where people submit zelda fangame screenshots and vote on the best one. a few people here might know what that is already but there it is
i had a dream last night that the admins of that site had set up an important irl discussion and i was invited as a former staff member. so supposedly, they’d gotten a screenshot entry from the vatican that won one week. except there were a few problems: one, the screenshot was a mockup, not actually made in the fangame engine, so it was a fake screenshot. two, the person who might have done it personally was GODDAMNED POPE FRANCIS
oh by the way THIS MEETING WAS SET UP IN THE BALCONY OF A VATICAN CITY CATHOLIC CHURCH AND WE’RE HIDING WATCHING THE GODDAMNED POPE who is, in fact, giving a speech to his bishops and NOT actively sending doctored zelda fangame screenshots to SotW. AT LEAST NOT YET
but then he tells his bishops about how it’s okay to infiltrate youth culture places and use it to spread the gospel and oops wee woo wee woo everyone’s "THE POPE DID IT" sirens are going off. everyone starts talking about how horribly betrayed they feel by the pope and what an awful, evil pope he is, and how even the last pope was better than this one.
i’m a little frustrated by this and i bring it up with some… surprisingly cogent arguments for a dream. i mention that pope francis was ALWAYS evil and bad — that his arguments against trans people seem to suggest it. when he compares trans people to nuclear weapons, he’s not just saying Trans Bad, he's saying that he thinks trans peoples' existence should cause people fear and that they should be legislated against by governments around the world. he's giving bigots a blank checks to make sure trans people don't exist. you don't do that unless you're at least a little evil.
anyway eventually we end up in a restaurant holding a vote on what to do and the restaurant looks like a chili’s. i’m not sure if we teleported back to america at some point or if we’re in a vatican city Chili’s® but there it is. everyone from this goddamned zelda forum votes to declare war on the vatican city-state on the grounds that pope francis made a fake zelda screenshot for a screenshot contest. i quit and leave and go the fuck home. the end
dream C (last night):
i had a vivid dream that a major source of my dysphoria was relieved and i was living happily and comfortably and freely as a girl and it caused me horrible dysphoria when i woke up and i want to die
i guess that last dream wasn’t very funny or fun, was it
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